Hahaha, so yeah, it's pretty sad that it's come down to this (yes, *this*),
and yeah, what I mean by *T H I S*, is me pointing out my recent case of,
well, WRITER'S BLOCK, and if you don't know the term "writer's block",
it's when a 'writer' suddenly becomes, yeah, unable to produce 'writings',
happens to writers in all fields (authors, musicians, scripters, bloggers, etc),
and apparently, it's gotten to ME, here in the last (idunno) 2-to-3 weeks.
So yeah, with *this blog*, this here is indeed my *attempt* to get out of it.
Now, another factor playing into my "writer's block", is my (uh) day job,
be it, that I work a restaurant job (#RestaurantThatCannotBeNamed),
and yeah, I've had a *slight increase* in hours, and decrease in 'days off'.
II. 12.20.14 DEADLINE (TO FIND A GIRL FRIEND)
So need I stress the point, that for me to have "writer's block" at this time
(THIS FUCKIN' TIME!) of year, yeah, as we approach the 2014 HOLIDAYS,
and the fact that, uh, I have until 12.20.14 (that's December 20th, 2014)
to successfully FIND A GIRL FRIEND, and yeah, let me repeat it for ya,
I HAVE A DEADLINE OF 12.20.14 IN ORDER TO FIND A GIRL FRIEND!
And yeah, between now (11.10.14 and 12.20.14), I should be doing (idunno)
EVERYTHING IN MY GOD GIVEN POWER to try to make THAT happen!
But unfortunately, when looking back (at myself) at the last month-or-so,
I can honestly say that I haven't been utilizing my time the way I should be,
and if I don't fix it *RIGHT NOW*, yeah, I'm gonna regret (hard) it later on.
III. ALCOHOLIDAYS (ARE COMIN)
So yeah, eventhough *THE GOAL* (for me) is to find a GIRL FRIEND
(this 2014 holiday season), yeah, I'm (kinda) under the slight impression,
that I WON'T, lol, especially as I go deeper into the month of December,
and when *THE PRESSURE* just continues to MOUNT AND MOUNT
(heading towards my proposed deadline of 12.20.14: to find a girl friend).
Just letting you all know, there's gonna be some, well... ALCOHOLIDAYS!
Days, where *THE SADNESS* (of tryin to find a girl friend, but just can't)
is gonna be so overwhelming, that yeah, I may indeed have to call upon
THE DEMONS (OF ALCOHOL) to help, um, *enlighten me* on occasion.
And when I say "alcohol", I'm not talkin beer, oh I mean *hard stuff* (rum).
IV. MASSIVE CASE (OF WRITER'S BLOCK) II
So I should point out, the previous (uh) 3 paragraphs, you see before this,
you know how long it took me to write that out, let's see, I started 4:15PM,
and now I write this, 6:20PM, taking me over 2 HOURS to think that out!
Yeah, shouldn't take me 2 whole freakin hours to write 3 paragraphs, hm,
but when you get hit with "writer's block", yeah, I guess that's what happens.
As I be writing this, I feel a section of my brain (or mind) feeling somewhat,
ummm, fatigued (I guess you can say), as if it doesn't want to take part
in this "writing exercise", and that I should maybe (idunno) *wait* until
I get that 'writing itch' back, rather than *force myself* (as I be doing here)
to get this blog out to the world, but do I got time to *wait* shit out, nope.
V. MANNEQUIN HEAD, GIRL FRIEND
So yeah, I've been writing about *THIS* quite a bit in recent months, lol,
the idea of, yes, "ME" buying a female mannequin head (online, of course),
and having "IT" serve as, yes, *MY GIRL FRIEND* (let me repeat it for ya),
ME BUYING A PLASTIC DOLL HEAD AND MAKING IT MY GIRL FRIEND!
If, of course, I am UNSUCCESSFUL in my achieving MY MAIN GOAL
of finding, yes, an actual REAL, HUMAN GIRL FRIEND (by 12/20/2014).
I'm not lying or exaggerating in any way, when I say this, but everyday,
yes, every single fucking day, I take time looking at "mannequin heads",
seeing who/where (online) sells them, and of course, trying to find (lol)
"THE ONE" (head) most resembling the ideal girl I want (but can't get).
VI. MY SIZE BARBIE (FIRST THOUGHTS)
So I thought this was a bit interesting to note, but yeah, sometime between
this paragraph and the previous, I stumbled upon something, upon doing a
Google Search, and yeah, I discovered something called "My Size Barbie"
and what this is, is, well... the biggest, tallest standing Barbie doll (LOL)
manufactured for the public, yeah, standing in at 38 INCHES! (3 feet tall!).
Not a new creation, by any means, having been first introduced to the toy market in 1992, with its last version in 2010, before its discontinuation.
So yeah, when online searching, to see if an "adult-sized" Barbie head (lol)
was ever brought to the (toy) market, nope, none were ever made (damn),
but then I came across, "My Size Barbie", which really did intrigue me.
VII. MY SIZE BARBIE (SECOND THOUGHTS)
So when I first came across "My Size Barbie", yeah, I was laughing at it,
especially, when seeing pictures of it (on Google Image Search) of lil kids
standing next to it, some of whom were shorter than the (3 foot) doll itself,
I initially blew it off, also being that (not to sound racist) your standard Barbie, "Blonde haired, blue eyed, fair skin" wasn't really *my type* :P
So I assumed they didn't create, you know, "other (skin) coloured" barbies,
but how about that, I searched, and I found Black and Spanish versions too.
And yeah, did the Spanish version look good or what, needless to say,
it kinda changed 'my perception' on what I thought about "My Size Barbie".
So yeah, now I'm thinking of getting, yes... A MY SIZE BARBIE (DOLL)! :O
VIII. MASSIVE CASE (OF WRITER'S BLOCK) III
I just wanna state the fact, that the first 5 paragraphs of this very blog
was indeed a pain on the brain, taking me about (let's see) 6 hours (?),
and it's not like I couldn't think of stuff to say, oh, I got TONNES a shit
on my mind atm, I need to let out, but it seems like a *STRANGE FORCE*
(FROM ABOVE) is trying prevent me from getting my words/message out :P
And no, I'm not one of those peoples who "hear voices" (in their head), lol,
I may be a bit on the (ummm) *psycho edge*, no denying that, but yeah,
I really sense there's some sorta (idunno) *evil entity*, I wouldn't say
"in possession" of my soul, but I'd more say (um) "messing with my spirit".
Especially considering my recent fascination with mannequin heads/dolls.
IX. MASSIVE CASE (OF WRITER'S BLOCK) IV
So I'd like to quickly point out, the last 3 paragraphs of this blog here
were all written within an hour's span (yeah, I'm obsessively keeping track
the time it's taking me to write this blog, pretty fucking sad), but anyways.
Oh and yeah, now part of my slight increase in *writing production*, lol,
might have to do with the fact, yeah, I decided take this blog 'on the road',
as I write > this paragraph < on location, BCC (Bramalea City Centre) mall.
I'm kinda getting the feeling, my room might be infested with DEMONS, lol,
and yeah, those very *DEMONS* may be to blame for my "writer's block",
especially when, in my bedroom, it's kinda hard to keep off (um) PORN,
for a '2 hour period', and yeah, no wonder I'm having writing difficulties.
X. MASSIVE CASE (OF WRITER'S BLOCK) V
So yeah, just to sum up what the fuckin point of this blog is, which btw,
took me a whole 24 hours to write (24 hours to do 10 paragraphs?! ouch),
yeah, it's indeed for me to remind the world, once again... about 12.20.14!
and the fact, I have literally 40 DAYS, to find a (real, human) GIRL FRIEND,
and yeah, if I can't get one, I guess I must settle for *ALTERNATIVES*
(what those "alternatives" are, well, they're already mentioned in this blog).
But yeah, being a firm believer in GOD (yeah, that cocksucking asshole!)
that I am, I'm just gonna do everything in the best of my ability (these next
40 days... AIMING DESPERATELY HARD TO FIND A GIRL FRIEND <3),
and see, whether or not, TIS THE SEASON it was indeed *MEANT TO BE*.
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