So there's definately no denying it, or hiding it, but I am indeed SINGLE,
and not only 'just single', but yeah, SINGLE ALL MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!111
Not by choice, since I have ALWAYS WANTED to have A GIRL FRIEND,
but yeah, the *FORCES THAT BE* still continue to prevent it, to this day.
So I thought I devote an entire 10-PIECE article speaking in detail about it,
aptly titled "MY CURSE", and indeed, WHY I CAN'T GET A GIRL FRIEND!
And adding more SALT into the WOUND, it's not only the basic fact that
"I can't get a girl friend", I can't get A DATE, not even A TEXT from a girl!
absolutely nothing, look, I'll even POST MY NUMBER: 416-884-3787!
and will a single girl even text me? NOPE! it's all thanks to THE CURSE!
II. MY CURSE II
So before I get into THE CURSE, yeah, let's quickly sum up "my love life"
(or lack thereof), starting with 'public school', which was about "grade 5",
when I first started 'liking girls', and indeed, wanting to have a 'girl friend',
but I never got to have one, no problem, it was only 'public school' (right?)
So next came 'high school', and surely, I assumed I'd *eventually* find a
'girl friend' along the way, but NEVER ONCE in my 6 YEARS in high school
(6 years, cuz I failed grade 12 English 3 TIMES, never took summer school)
did 'the opportunity' arise, and yeah, I had to *STANDBY (IN ENVY)* of
other guys having 'girl friends', while I got nothing, not even ugly/fat girls.
Indeed, looking back at this, has me very much TREMBLING IN ANGER!
III. MY CURSE III
So then I went to 'college' for a brief moment ('one semester', mind you, lol)
(before dropping out), and yeah, from the very 'first minute' I was there,
*academics/learning* never seemed to be my focus, unfortunately, yeah,
instead I was too focused on tryin to make friends and *find a girl friend*,
neither of which, I was successful at doing, so I fuckin ditched it altogether.
Not too long after that, I got my first job, as a dishwasher for a Swiss Chalet,
lasting only 6 months, before quitting, thanks mainly to bullying by 'the boys'.
But no, in the short time there, not a single girl (server, host) came on to me.
After years, jobless, I later got a gig selling 'music/comic/wrestling' t-shirts
over in Shopper's World mall, for 3 years, before "the recession" kicked in.
IV. MY CURSE IV
So the job I had (selling t-shirts+hats) in Shopper's World, despite the fact,
I was getting paid 'well under' ($5/hour at one point), whatever, didn't mind it,
the job gave me HUGE EXPOSURE to girls, and yeah, cuz it was a booth,
and not an actual 'store', I didn't have to wait on customers to walk on in,
they would walk right by me, and yeah, there would be alot of *eye-to-eye*,
whether it was random girls, or girls who work in certain stores, in that mall.
But amazingly, in my 3 years (on-and-off) I only struck luck with ONE GIRL,
from a children's store called 'Rainbow', I got to know briefly (3-4 months),
and yeah, we traded numbers, but after 5 texts (she suddenly disappeared),
the opportunity never even came up for A DATE, lol, so talk about my luck.
V. MY CURSE V
So the last time (or second-last time, I should say) I saw this girl (2010),
who's name was "Richa" (although it's not 100% confirmed, I do believe
this here is her facebook, tho I've never communicated with her through it),
it was in Shopper's World mall, at the t-shirt booth, and 'we linked our cells',
and yeah, she looked real stoked to see me (having not talked in months),
so yeah, I thought that we were gonna be *better friends* from that point,
but was I ever wrong, we texted 5 times, but never heard from her again.
Around a week later, I did see her with a friend (in Shopper's World mall),
watching me from a distance, taking into eachothers ears, with a 'mad look',
but I didn't go and approach her, I assumed I did 'something wrong', I guess.
VI. MY CURSE VI
So as the very famous (life) saying goes "everything happens for a reason",
and yeah, not realizing it 'back then' (5 years ago), but realizing it *now*,
it was indeed THE CURSE causing my relations, with one, "Richa" to sour,
and eventually become the faded 'ancient memory' that it is today (in 2014).
The fact I've spent this amount of time talkin about her, is it safe to assume,
I wanna get back in touch with this "Richa" girl? (should be obvious) Yes.
But yeah, as I was saying, it's THE CURSE (placed upon me by GOD) that
caused not only my friendship with "Richa" to (yeah) crumble the way it did,
and also preventing me from linking with other girls in Shoppers World mall,
the many... to whom I easily coulda "gotten to know... and them some" :P
VII. MY CURSE VII
So anyways, about a year later, after the recession (black hole) came and
swept Shopper's World mall, and yeah, left me seeking 'new employment',
I would apply to 25 dine-in restaurants throughout Brampton/Mississauga,
in a span of 7 days, and thus I landed my 'current' job with B0$t0n P!zz@.
So yeah, andso I been 'told', I'm not allowed to talk about/mention *THEM*
(as far as my 'personal, web rantings'), so I guess I'll make this real 'brief'.
But yeah, the fact, I WORK AT A B0$T0N P!ZZ@ (for 3 nearly years now)
> RESTAURANT THAT ATTRACTS INSANE AMOUNTS OF BITCHES <
and STILL I CAN'T GET A GIRL FRIEND, yeah, what the fuck can I say?!
Was upon there, I (fully) realized, I've indeed been dealt A CURSED LIFE!
VIII. MY CURSE VIII
So yeah, the fact I go on (and on and on...) with this whole CURSE thing,
I figure a discuss a little about, yes, the 'origins' of this (supposed) curse.
Kay, so there's this uncle I have, living out in Scarborough (my Uncle B),
andso I heard, through the grapevine, even recently as 'a few weeks ago',
that he's been trying to undo this 'curse' that was brought onto our family
'over a century ago', and it is this very curse, to which has provided alot of
'bad spirits' to members of our family, especially, the last 3 generations.
Not only has the curse affected him (Uncle B) personally, being that, well,
he's recent divorcee, but also his 2 kids (that being my 2 cousins), from
what I heard, aren't really doing well, in terms of jobs and relationships.
IX. MY CURSE IX
So now, when it comes to the curse, and how it affects 'my family' per se,
yeah, I guess it pretty much shows its ugly face, in various different ways,
like for example, my 2 cousins, I mentioned before (1 being a girl, 1 a guy).
From what I would recall, 2 good-looking, and very charismatic people,
and yeah, "meeting people", is the last of their worries (opposite my case),
unfortunately, from what I hear, one is having a hard time holding a job,
while the other, well, is meeting one "abusive boy friend" after the other.
For me, my job is the last of my worries, but as far as 'other departments',
the fact, "I CAN'T GET A GIRL FRIEND!", let alone A DATE or A FUCK,
and yeah, my spending problems, and current ($7'500+) DEBT CRISIS!
X. MY CURSE X
So yeah, as far as "the family curse", and how it relates to ME personally,
is that, well, no matter HOW DAMN HARD I TRY and WHERE IT IS I TRY
(dating sites, bars, clubs, the mall), yeah, it's just never gonna happen,
> I AM NEVER GOING TO FALL IN LOVE NOR FIND A GIRL FRIEND <
Easy to say, EVERYBODY (past puberty) in my family, EXCEPT FOR ME
has had "a partner", at some point in their life (as I still await MY BREAK!).
Perhaps I might be "the one" *FORBIDDED* from ever having a relationship.
While I continue to FIGHT! and FIGHT! and FIGHT! against THE CURSE,
there's part of me, insisting I CONTINUE!, while there's another telling me
to just GIVE UP!, and yeah, throw my body infronta speeding 18 wheeler!
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