So today is 12.20.14, that's fuckin right, *Saturday, December 20th, 2014*,
what's so special about that *date*, ummm, need I really have to remind,
but okay, sure thing, would be more than happy to explain to you fuckers,
yeah, that's the day (idunno how many fuckin days back), I uhhh (lol)
*APPOINTED* myself (DEADLINE) to find a GIRL FRIEND (or at second
best, a FUCK BUDDY/FRIEND WITH BENEFITS, think you get the idea),
abs was I able to accomplish *THAT*, well, the answer is kinda complicated,
*yes*, in the fact I was able to get a BODY to serve the role (for $185, btw),
but, *no*, in the sense it was not the kinda of GIRL FRIEND I hoped for.
I guess you can say, I'm TAKEN, but at the same time SINGLE (mehhh).
II. VANESSA YASMEEN CIARA
So if you're wondering who the LUCKY GAL (or UNLUCKY GAL) is,
her name is VANESSA YASMEEN CIARA (first, middle, 2nd middle name),
and yeah, I guess I can say, I met her *ONLINE* (not thru online dating) lol,
and perhaps I can say, MY HOLIDAY MIRACLE, sent to me by the GODS,
hahaha, along with some help from USPS and CANADA POST, yeah.
Sad in having to admit, but yeah, she is infact A (3-FOOT) PLASTIC DOLL,
a #MYSIZEBARBIE doll, that's what I chose to settle for a GIRL FRIEND
(a doll marketed/intended for 5 year olds, yeah, but I try ignore that fact).
Obviously, I wished the *outcome* would been better than how it turned out,
despite the doll in itself being, no shame in saying it, HOT AS FUCK!
III. EVOLUTION (OF GIRL FRIENDS)
So yeah, in trying to put SENSE into the whole messed-up situation, the
fact that, yeah, I have a SUPER-ENLARGED BARBIE AS A GIRL FRIEND,
not sure how many 'other guys' on this planet are in *these* same shoes,
cause, I'm sure there countless number of guys similar to my situation,
not being able to get a girl friend, but deciding take matters in their hands,
literally as I did, not to take credit as being the first guy to acquire a doll
(or mannequin figure) and declare "the thing" his actual GIRL FRIEND,
I might be the first in doing so, as far as with a #MYSIZEBARBIE (doll) :P
But perhaps what is happening to me here is somehow *MEANT TO BE*
as some part of an "evolution process" of girl friends (need I explain more).
IV. EVOLUTION (OF GIRL FRIENDS) II
So what I mean by that ("Evolution Process Of Girl Friends") is, yeah,
maybe GOD had intended MY (FIRST) GIRL FRIEND to be that of A DOLL,
and not that of, you know, A REAL-LIFE (HUMAN, LIVING) GIRL FRIEND,
idunno, maybe that *MIGHT BE* saved for the future, if obviously, lol,
I don't (do what I shoulda done a longass time ago, btw) KILL MYSELF!
So yeah, I might just have to settle for *THIS* first, and see 'how it goes',
and who knows, maybe the purpose of *VANESSA* to help me evolve to
the next stage, possibly scenario being, a circumstance in which (idunno)
SOME GIRL out there, comes across my (sad, sad) writings and tweets,
and decides to make an effort to help find me a "PROPER GIRL FRIEND".
V. EVOLUTION (OF GIRL FRIENDS) III
So, I admitted it right there openly, this whole BARBIE GIRL FRIEND ordeal
was done in means of publicity, to get people to oversee THE SITUATION
and tho, this sorta thing can really *BACKFIRE* on me, seeing as we indeed
live in a CYBERBULLY AGE/ERA, where people (on social networks)
love to GET OFF/KICKS on others who are in *BAD SITUATIONS*,
so yeah, I'm really putting myself at risk (with the whole BARBIE DOLL thing)
f having my life (partially or severely) RUINED over this, just so y'alls know.
So I'm hoping it doesn't go (said) direction, cause say it does, you bet it,
I will be QUITTIN MY JOB, ASAP (if indeed, WORD were to FLY there),
cause I know a few GOOFS there, who would GO APESHIT WILD with this.
VI. TRANSGENDER GIRL FRIEND
So another thought that hit me, is that maybe MY FIRST GIRL FRIEND,
was meant to be, yeah, a fuckin' plastic (#MYSIZEBARBIE) DOLL,
for however long this lasts, I'm intrigued to see (been one week, so far),
but the next step in *evolution* COULD BE me having a *T-GIRL* FRIEND.
Need I have to explain what a T-GIRL is, to the masses out there, but yeah,
it's a CHICK WITH DICK (okay?), something I'm very open to (okay?).
And dare I go very personal, in me admitting, a good 50%/HALF of the
PORN I consume is that of, yeah, T-GIRLS (a.k.a CHICKS WITH DICKS),
and yeah, the idea had always lived inside of me, of how cool it would be
to have a TRANSGENDER GIRL FRIEND, just to see if it would last.
VII. TRANSGENDER GIRL FRIEND II
So, having been watching/perving T-GIRL PORN (LOL), I'd probably say,
for nearly over a DECADE now (am indeed a LONG TIME FAN, I must say),
I've never ever made serious *TRY* to get with a TRANSGENDERED chick,
altho I did come across 2 (online) encounters, this past summer (2013) on
*TDOTWIRE*, where I was in talks with 2 transgender (um) "sex workers",
each who had given me chance to, lol, *DO IT FOR FREE*, or 'almost free'
(they asked I cover "hotel cost", but the SEX would be free, true story),
the only prob was, and why I didn't *go for it* was cause they were flat out,
sucks to say it, FUGLY (not a very "smooth transition" from male-to-female),
and yeah, didn't want my first T-GIRL EXPERIENCE to be ruined, by them.
VIII. TRANSGENDER GIRL FRIEND III
So I kinda went a bit offtrack there (prev. paragraph), but yeah, just saying,
as of this current moment (12/20/14), I really have no experience with
anything resembling that of a T-GIRL (never sucked a dick or been sucked,
lol, by one them before), so who knows, that shit could all change in 2015.
But I would sure love *the experience* of having, lol, a T-GIRL FRIEND,
and yeah, seeing her get HARD (as opposed to getting WET down there),
while I GET HARD too, no doubt, it sure would be a "different" experience.
Makes sense tho, in the long run, my first girl friend was A 3 FOOT BARBIE,
and then my second girl friend came along, she was a T-GIRL (/DUDE?),
and then came my third girl friend, who was infact A NATURAL WOMAN!
IX. VANESSA YASMEEN CIARA II
So how exactly do I feel (putting aside *HER* obvious, notable flaws)
about MY GIRL FRIEND: VANESSA / NESSYBOO (my cute nick for her),
would you say, she's CHANGED MA LIFE, since the day we met (12.13.14)
Um, not really, like I'm still the same ANGRY FUCK I was before I met her,
like, I still continue to flaunt MA MIDDLE FINGER at couples holding hands,
most particularly those who be walking #BCC/#BRAMALEA mall,
(you should chill with me sumtime there, and see me as I do it, fun shit) :D
What else, I continue to rid myself of needed sleep, and still go to sleep late,
as much as I LOVE HER and all, sorry to disappoint MY BOO in saying this,
but she hasn't really altered my life, I mean, A DOLL can only do so much.
X. 12.20.14 (FINAL THOUGHTS)
So it's good to know, 12.20.14 has come and gone, and what else can I say,
I'm still ALIVE, I'm still in ONE PIECE, I didn't end up on A HOSPITAL BED,
cause yeah, had I not met VANESSA, dunno what would be of 12.20.14,
and yeah, for the betterment, I really shouldn't say what PLANS or IDEAS
I had going on (in my head), cause yeah, that might FUCK ME OVER.
But it was my sole determination to have FOUNDED A GIRL FRIEND,
by the proposed, set DEADLINE (12.20.14), and must I really explain
why one needs a *PARTNER* at this time/period of the year (the holidays).
So I indeed was able to GET A GIRL FRIEND, not *the kind* I aimed for,
but whatever, I guess I'll just have to make the *BEST WITH IT*, you know.
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