So yeah, though this shouldn't really come as *news*, considering the fact,
well, I don't present myself as the most *happiest* of individuals, at times,
but yeah, I'm here issuing out this post, letting you all know how very much,
yes, *ANGRY* I am right now, particularly with the recent events in my life,
and yeah, this is probably the most *tense* I feel (right at this very minute)
since the day of my recent, past (UNCELEBRATED) birthday, 05/30/14.
Haha yeah, it's amazing I still can't let go of *that*, I guess it's continue to
reside within me, until yeah, *someone* finally takes me out for my bday.
Like, you wouldn't believe how much my head and hands are *trembling*
as I be writing this, so yeah, need I have to explain the whole *situation*.
II. ON VACATION
So first and foremost, let it be known, I am *ON VACATION* right now,
3 weeks (July 23rd to August 11th) away from my strenuous restaurant job,
working as a (for the most part) *DISHWASHER* at a "B0$+0N P1ZZA".
It has its 'ups' and its 'downs', but overall, a VERY DEPRESSING position.
So I got granted my vacation (time off), and very much THANKFUL for it,
not only so I give my body, especially my feet, much deserved healing time,
but also, so I can *attempt* to enjoy life, not feeling 'tied-down' to my job.
Sadly, this vacation has provided little in the form of good times/memories,
and yeah, if I were to go back to work *tomorrow*, what else can I tell ya,
I would be VERY, VERY MUCH DISPLEASED (over how my time off went).
III. NEW YORK CITY
So yeah, my whole 2014 vacation started out with a "BLAST", I suppose,
going to NEW YORK CITY, with the 'Rents, for the first time in 4 years,
to see 'family', yeah, not to see THE CITY (never the plan to go downtown).
Sad, my parents have NO RESPECT for NEW YORK CITY: THE CITY,
not realizing for a second, it's the single GREATEST CITY IN THE WORLD,
and treating it like some small, dinky neighborhood town they grew up in
(true, in the fact we did use to live there, before having to move to Canada).
If you can imagine this, one of our main "priorities", when going to NYC,
was to go back to some shitty (Winners like) thrift store named "Kohl's"
(somewhere out in Queens), so yeah, very unfulfilling trip to say the least.
IV. FAMILY
So what else now, yeah, I got to see family (aunts, uncles, cousins, etc.),
majority to whom actually live in the GTA (an hour's travel/distance time),
who I amazingly have privilege of seeing 2-3-4 times year (at maximum).
I not only saw them, while in NYC, for our uncle's 50th big birthday bash,
a week ago, but I got the chance to see them again, just a few days ago,
at a small backyard 'party', out in Ajax, and while I did have an OK time,
I was very much BOTHERED tho over the fact many of my 'guy cousins'
brought their GIRL FRIEND with them, oh and yeah, the ones who didn't,
would make 'mention' of theirs, so yeah, pretty much as reminder by GOD,
in letting me know (as always), I am the only *SINGLE ONE* of the set.
V. ESTRANGED FAMILY
So yeah, though this shit doesn't bother me as much as it bothers my mom,
but yeah, we *used to* have a real 'close-knit' family, down there in NYC
(my mom's siblings), until the *BIG PAPI* died in 2008, and how about it,
the family split *in half* over the estate (money), and yeah, pretty much,
the 'cool half' (more popular) of the family broke off from the 'uncool half',
and you can sorta guess 'which half' I (and my mom and dad) fell under.
And what I hear with the 'cool half', its all nonstop parties, least every month,
parties to which I (and my mom and dad) are not a welcomed part of,
and yeah, had there not been *that rift* (splitting the whole family apart),
this past trip to NYC woulda been ALOT more WORTHWHILE than it was.
VI. PARENTS
So it took me until 'this summer' to finally realize, that yes, I been BLESSED
with the 2 WORST pairing of parents, in terms of both sides of the family.
A mother who has 'arthritis', as well as, hates 'being in the sun' (her quote),
and a father who loves to just watch tv, and be on his computer, all day,
both apparently TOO STRESSED by their 'office jobs' (so I always hear).
Meanwhile, I have aunts and uncles (some who also work full-time jobs)
who are out there, making the best use of the weather, while it's GOOD!
And yeah, they take PICTURES, so they can look back at the good times.
They'd encourage my parents be more active, and to get out, but to no luck.
They think buying me cereal, or take-out dinner, is what keeps me 'happy'.
VII. CARIBANA
So as I write this, we are 2 days since the big CARIBANA celebration, in
downtown Toronto, and yeah, this should be somewhat a BIG DEAL to me
(as I'm GUYANESE, born there too, and come from a big Guyanese family).
So I'm not sure how many my relatives went out and celebrated Caribana,
I'm sure a good number did, especially not using 'weather' as an excuse
whether to (or not to) go somewhere, like 2 (old) people I really know, LOL.
Sadly, I was left out of the festivities this year, as is the case be every year,
and yeah, having NEVER ONCE celebrated Caribana, to know what it's like.
When I think 'CARIBANA', I look in damper, of "the life I shoulda be given..."
where I be out there, celebrating, with my HOT GUYANESE GIRL FRIEND.
VIII. PLENTYOFFISH + OKCUPID
So this seems to be the theme for the (my) summer, in the fact, that yes,
I am continually having my profile/account, yes, DELETED/TERMINATED,
by these 2 dating networks: PLENTYOFFISH.COM and OKCUPID.COM,
yeah, due to (I'm guessing) "a lack of sportsmanship", or "bad behaviour",
if you wanna call it that, and making matters worse, if you can believe it,
I also PAY *MEMBERSHIP* to these sites (GIVING THEM MY MONEY),
and how about it, I'm treated like a CRIMINAL, despite no criminal record.
Despite however MANY TIMES they booted me off, guess what, BITCHES,
I keep coming back, and in seemingly ongoing battle, luckily I save my shit.
I guess SOME PEOPLE are out to prevent me from tryin to FALL IN LOVE.
IX. DATING.ISSUEZZ.COM
So how about it, it took me many weeks to finish, but it's finally completed!
That being my official *DATING PROFILE* (link: DATING.ISSUEZZ.COM),
simply titled "BELOW-STANDARD (Dating Profile Of A Loser) 08/04/14",
which does not apply just to females online, but yeah, all females in general.
Any girl, any time, any place (although must be in the GTA) is applicable
to this profile, and by means of just a 'text' (my number: 416-884-3787),
YOUR READY-TO-HIRE BOY FRIEND & FUTURE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE
will be ready at your service, if of course, you're not out to FUCK WITH ME!
Although, at the time I wrote this "dating profile", I was somewhat 'bitter',
and contains many BAD THINGS about me, you know what, let it stand!
X. $7'196.70 DEBT
So let's see here, I'm just gonna quickly log into my BMO, real quick here,
so I could tell ya exactly how much CREDIT CARD DEBT I'm in atm, and
it tells me $7'196.70 (seven thousand, one hundred and ninety six dollars),
and yes, $196.70 over the limit, and I just put in $500 less than week ago.
What else can I say, this the worst I've ever been in, in terms of my DEBT,
and yeah, I have no idea when (or if...) I will ever get out of *this situation*.
Although clothing (and most recently, records) have played a role in this,
2 other BIG PLAYERS, especially as of this summer, and the last 5 months,
are ADULT SITES, but moreso, ONLINE DATING SITE MEMBERSHIPS!
I woulda been making much greater *PROGRESS* had not been for that.
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