LOL, so if you think my fuckin problems end at "X." (TEN), well think again!
There's more, and yeah, a good 10 MORE LONG PARAGRAPHS worth of.
And yeah, the way I'm going off here, especially considering this being
just "days" after I finished writing that SUPERASS LONG "Dating Profile",
LOL, you might think this is, idunno... A SUICIDE LETTER or some deal,
but whatever, I'm just ANGRY, and waiting for my head to stop spinning,
and hopefully, by time I'm done with this writing, it just might finally stop.
But a big L.O.L., to whoever is reading THIS, whether they are indeed,
laughing their arses off, saying to themselves, "I wonder what meds he on?",
ummm, I'm not on any meds, aside from the sleeping pills I take 'nightly'.
I. ISSUEZZ.COM
So there's something I realized not long ago, my website, ISSUEZZ.COM,
and the fact, it gets NO HITS, no matter how damn hard I try to *push it*,
I mean, it's mentioned/linked to on every dating/social site profile I'm got,
and yeah, I try including the link in some form, when interacting with people,
but yeah, all that effort seemingly goes to waste, since I'm not seeing 'hits'.
Now with my previous 2 sites (same deal, me and 'my ranting nonsense'),
I did see hits, and when I would get hits, it meant people READ MY SHIT.
But for whatever reason, I'm not getting any, which has led me to believe,
that yeah, none of the shit I be posting here, will really amount to anything,
nor will it ever be read until *THE UNFORTUNATE* happens with me.
III. 747 FLEA MARKET
So yeah, every now and then I would drag my ass to the (747) flea market,
not because I need to buy anything there (the place is kind of a dump) lol.
I go for ONE REASON, the girls (east indian/west indian), they're there!
not exactly sure why, but this place seems to *attract them*, andso I'd go.
Amazingly, every time I plan to go to this flea market, I'd have "this plan"
to try to pick up girls, but by time 'I reach', through the longass bus ride,
the plan would just falter, and I'd see these girls, but nothing would happen.
I would say, this ("plan") has happened 4 times (at least), just this summer,
and yeah, what can I say, you don't even know how much this angers me.
So that was this past weekend, if I do go back again, expect the same shit!
IV. BRAMALEA CITY CENTRE
So if people already didn't know, yes, I am a regular frequenter of #BCC
(Bramalea City Centre) mall, can't be a week gone by, and I haven't been.
And yeah, much like what I said with the flea market, same applies to here,
I go there for NUMBER ONE REASON of all, yeah, to look for CHICKS, I
see MANY THINGS I like, but unfortunately, same sappy ending every time.
Now I don't head into the mall(s) with a "gameplan" (to try to get chicks),
like with the flea market, whole different ballgame/psychology there, lol,
but nonetheless, I see MANY THINGS I like, and they indeed notice me too,
and I go hoping (THROUGH MIRACLE) something (SPARKS) would fly,
but yeah, NOTHING HAPPENS, and just left feeling EMPTY in the end.
V. SQUARE ONE
So yeah, been over a year (a year and 9 months) since my last visit out to
Square One mall (in Mississauga), a site once *formerly* a weekly chill spot.
As much as Square One was an awesome mall and chill spot and whatnot,
what brought me down most was amount of young couples *holding hands*
I remember many times (goin alone), and I would treat myself to something,
like Ice Cream or Mrs. Field's Cookies, and as I'm trying to enjoy the taste,
it be tainted by some BITCH AND HER DICKHEAD (what I would call them)
*holding hands* past me, bringing both myself, and my taste-buds down.
And yeah, I vowed never go back there, until I finally had a GIRL FRIEND.
Andso I thought, this summer was gonna be 'the summer', but not the case.
VI. ABANDON ALL SHIPS CONCERT
So there wasn't that much things planned for my whole "vacation" really,
but what I did have planned was to go to this Abandon All Ships concert,
happening in Brampton, on the (August) 11th, and perhaps it mighta been,
idunno, SMART, to have bought the (concert) tickets to the show by now,
but unfortunately, I didn't, and would have liked to "as soon as possible",
but with my CREDIT CARD BEING MAXED OUT atm, and whatnot, LOL,
looks like I won't be going to the show, though, there still might be a chance.
This here would have been my first attended concert in 7 years, bytheway,
and it's taking place the LAST NIGHT of my vacation, so yeah, if I were to
be SCREWED OUT of this, yeah, need I be more ANGRIER than I am?!
VII. FAILURE SUMMER
So no doubt about it, if of course, AUGUST brings me absolutely nothing,
in terms of MEMORIES (still another 24 days remaining, still some hope left)
it indeed looks to be (yet) another FAILURE SUMMER in the record books
Now let's see, with my birthday, having been on May 30th (and 31st, LOL),
and how fuckin mishandled that was, causing me be down for alot of the
month of June, and then came July, and how July showed so much promise,
and look what a LETDOWN it came to be, so yeah, all down to August now.
Yes indeed, I got ALOT pressure put on me for THIS month, for something,
idunno, MOMENTOUS/GROUNDBREAKING/EARTH-SHATTERING to
come my way, like for example, say "me finally having MY FIRST DATE!"
VIII. CONSPIRACY THEORY
So while I could do a BIG, LONG banter about what a *REJECT* I am,
when it comes to the ladiez, I infact came to the conclusion, that I'M NOT,
and perhaps, what I'm gonna say, may be seen as crazy conspiracy theory.
But hear me out now, so yeah, though it 'appears' I *RARELY* get replies
from the ladiez (most those replies, btw, being told to 'fuck off' in some way),
I actually DO get many replies (inc. numbers, BBMs, hookups), but GOD
*INTERCEPTS* THEM, cuz if you didn't know, ME and GOD are at WAR!
Even MY FUCKIN' PHONE, plenty of girls will text me, or attempt to call me,
and I'll never even know, because GOD *INTERCEPTS* THEM, and yeah,
when infact I do get texts, or a nice reply, GOD (later) SABOTAGES THEM!
So I thought I bring up the amazing example of GOLDENTURTLE26, from
the OKCUPID dating network (link), VERY BEAUTIFUL TOO, might I add.
Shoulda already saw the sign (this is indeed GOD out to FUCK with me),
you know, since the name GOLDENTURTLE has the letters "G, O, D" in it
(especially in straight letter order, G O (L) D, could it be any more obvious).
So this was an instance here, in which, this girl sent me 'a few replies back',
in what appeared to look like, her trying to *HELP ME*, with my 'approach'
(telling me 'I need to rework my gameplan'), and yeah, I replied back to her
'optimistically', but how strange was it tho, she chose never to reply back.
Maybe 'she did', and GOD *INTERCEPTED* it, and TOOK IT from me.
So I'm just letting the word be heard, that yes, come the end of the summer,
if I am not SATISFIED/HAPPY with the events of AUGUST (this month),
and indeed left feeling BITTER/DISAPPOINTED with my summer (2014),
I am going to LASH OUT in a form of ...let's just say... "SPIRITUAL RAGE"
towards GOD (like you never seen a person so ANGRY at GOD in your life)
For many years, I thought about getting a custom "FUCK GOD" t-shirt made
(for nearly a decade now), and times I came close to doing it, but amazingly,
it would be prevented, but 'next month' looks like the month, it could happen.
I also be 'initiating' in 2 VERY ANTI-GOD records ("Yeezus" by Kanye West
& "Anti-Christ Superstar" by Marilyn Manson) into my new record collection.
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