DIZTURBIA.COM | RECORD INDUCTION | NINE INCH NAILS "THE DOWNWARD SPIRAL" (1994) | 10/24/14

I. OPENING THOUGHTS

Alright now, putting aside all of life's problems, LOL (if indeed you read

some of the previous blogs, leading into this one, quite the probs I have!),

I bring you, my latest induction to my personal (DVSNGH) record collection,

this being, not just 'one of' the greatest records/musical masterpieces ever

created/released on this earth, perhaps, THE GREATEST OF ALL TIME!

This here being "THE DOWNWARD SPIRAL (1994)" from Nine Inch Nails,

a record that which gained alot of critical acclaim/praise, as well as, infamy.

So yeah, for all those unaware, this is what is called a "concept" album,

in that, it's not just music 'for the sake of music', but music that tells a story,

and the story here, is that of a guy who goes crazy, and (yes) kills himself!

II. THOUGHTS ON NINE INCH NAILS

So for all those who don't know who or what (wtf?) "Nine Inch Nails" are,

it's, I wouldn't say "a band", but a 'music act' lead by one man/intellect

by name of "Trent Reznor" (with the assistance of musicians/technicians).

One of the greatest American musical acts/bands to come out of the 90's,

producing what is called "industrial rock" music, a term of which describes,

"rock/metal" music mixed with "electronic/dance" music (see full definition).

A band I first discovered (1996) on the 'Beavis & Butthead' (cartoon) show,

which featured their big hit song "March Of The Pigs" (see Youtube clip),

and yeah, was soon after that, I went to the "Pickering Flea Market" (later

replaced by Walmart), and got me my first copy of "The Downward Spiral".

III. TRACKLISTING

1. "Mr. Self Destruct" (4:30)
2. "Piggy" (4:24)
3. "Heresy" (3:54)
4. "March Of The Pigs" (2:58)
5. "Closer" (6:13)
6. "Ruiner" (4:58)
7. "The Becoming" (5:31)
8. "I Do Not Want This" (5:41)
9. "Big Man With A Gun" (1:36)
10. "A Warm Place" (3:22)
11. "Eraser" (4:54)
12. "Reptile" (6:51)
13. "The Downward Spiral" (3:57)
14. "Hurt" (6:13)

IV. TRACK REFERENCE

14. "Hurt" ★★★★★
4. "March Of The Pigs" ★★★★★
3. "Heresy" ★★★★★
5. "Closer" ★★★★★
1. "Mr. Self Destruct" ★★★★★
6. "Ruiner" ★★★★★
12. "Reptile" ★★★★★
9. "Big Man With A Gun" ★★★★★
13. "The Downward Spiral" ★★★★
8. "I Do Not Want This" ★★★★
2. "Piggy" ★★★
10. "A Warm Place" ★★★
11. "Eraser" ★★
7. "The Becoming" ★★

V. FAVORITE TRACK

So yeah, now I was originally going to pick (track 4) "March Of The Pigs"

as my *standout track*, cause of how much of a fuckin RIOT the song is,

lol, like, talk about one of those songs that gets you (um) MOTIVATED!

But the trophy definately goes to (track 14) "Hurt", indeed, the record's

most softest (as well as, depressing) song, and yes, a song about suicide!

From the viewpoint of the character (depicted throughout the story and

theme of the album), and also, that of (its main songwriter) Trent Reznor.

Despite it's 'theme', the song was HUGE, and cemented the legacy of "NIN".

Sadly, the song became overshadowed by a Johnny Cash remake (2003),

which hugely STUNK, and to what I call, the "old, senile, crippled" version.

VI. OTHER STANDOUT TRACKS

So when it comes to the rest of "The Downward Spiral", holy fuck, man!

Talk about a record downright driven by ANGER & DEMONS (drug use,

btw, playing a confirmed role in the making of this record), and you can

feel it on (tracks 1 and 9) "Mr. Self Destruct" and "Big Man With A Gun",

and especially, (track 4) "March Of The Pigs", where even in its video,

(lead man) Trent Reznor is stumbling like a maniac, either drunk -or- high

off something, tho, mighta been just acting (to make you think he was...).

And then, there's (track 3) "Heresy", not only filled with brilliant hooks

(as well as rhythm), but that added *punch* of religious-bashing lyrics

("he dreamed a God up and called it Christianity" and "God is dead!").

VII. LEAST FAVORITE TRACKS

So the other big hit off this record was (track 5) "Closer", perhaps, a tie,

as far as biggest Nine Inch Nail *hit* to date, along with (track 14) "Hurt",

and while "Hurt" was famous for being a "timeless, sentimental" piece,

"Closer" was famous for being a "dance club/radio/music video" smash,

as well as, its cheesy main lyric ("I wanna fuck you like an animal"), lol.

Personally, I was really annoyed by the song, despite its superb production.

And speaking of 'production', no doubt, The Downward Spiral is one of the

best produced records in history (in terms of sound quality and effects),

but as for songwriting, it's hit-or-miss, and a few of those 'misses' were

(tracks 7 and 11) "The Becoming" and "Eraser" (they honestly bored me).

VIII. ARTWORK

So, no fucking doubt about it, The Downward Spiral has one of the most

prolific cover arts EVER in the history of record covers (just look at it!).

Now, if you can't make out what it is, and looks like a fuckin mess to you,

well, GUESS WHAT?! that's exactly what it is, it's a motherfuckin MESS!

But yeah, so this is a portrait/painting, by an (English) artist Russell Mills,

consisting of the following: plaster, acrylics, oils, rusted metals, insects,

moths, human blood (his blood), wax, varnishes, and surgical bandaging,

all on a wooden backboard, and (the best part) left basicly to rot and decay.
How it connects to the album's title, "The Downward Spiral", I have no idea,
but indeed, it's an imagery, I can just fuckin' stare at for literal hours! O_o

IX. CLOSING THOUGHTS

So yeah, it couldn't be any more (uh) "fitting" (lol), that I present to you,

Nine Inch Nails' "The Downward Spiral", and its induction into my very

special record collection, at a time when, I'm amidst a *downward spiral*

of my own, lol, be it, the fact, my life is a fuckin disaster, oh and the fact,

that yeah, I'm eventually gonna KILL MYSELF "later down the road" :)

Now, this record doesn't actually contain subliminals/hidden messages,

that would make somebody (who, uh, wants to, you know, end their life)

go and *do that*, unless of course, you listen to the song "Hurt" (track 14)

on an 'endless loop', but yeah, you gotta be real fucked to go do 'that'.

All in all, despite the "bad message" it contains, I LOVE THIS RECORD!

X. PICTURES

(FRONT COVER)

(BACK COVER)

(INLAY, FULL)

(INLAY, LEFT)

(INLAY, RIGHT)

(COVER SLEEVE 1, FRONT)

(COVER SLEEVE 1, BACK, LYRICS)

(COVER SLEEVE 2, FRONT)

(COVER SLEEVE 2, BACK, LYRICS)

(VINYL 1 & 2)

(VINYL 1, SIDE A)

(VINYL 1, SIDE B)

(VINYL 2, SIDE A)

(VINYL 2, SIDE B)

(ALL TOGETHER)

DIZTURBIA.COM | RECORD INDUCTION | JULIEN-K "DEATH TO ANALOG" (2009) | 10/24/14

I. OPENING THOUGHTS

So, the next album I want to induct into my (DVSNGH) record collection

is a record called "Death To Analog", by the (American) band Julien-K,

a band, similar to that of Nine Inch Nails, with its "industrial rock" sound,

but a little less 'guitar', and little more 'synth', pretty much in the vein/style

of bands from the "80's" (Depeche Mode, Duran Duran, New Order, etc).

A unique note about this record, in that (for me), it was the first CD/album

I had purchased (music I actually spent *money* on) in close to 8 years,

that then being "February 2009", the previous of which, if I can last recall,

was "June 2001", when I bought "Take Off Your Pants..." by Blink 182.

And you wanna know how many CD's I bought since then (2009)? ZERO!

II. THOUGHTS ON JULIEN-K

So yes, this Julien-K *CD* of "Death To Analog", I bought back in 2009,

is infact the only music album I purchased, from mid-2001 to mid-2013,

when I'd bought the vinyl of A$AP Rocky's "Long.Live.A$AP", which btw,

I didn't intend to buy, but had to, as part of a package to get the t-shirt.

So who the fuck are "Julien-K"? they are a rock band, out of California,

led by 2 guys, formerly of a band called "ORGY" (yes, actual band name),

who were HUGE, in the early 2000's, and that I absofuckinlutely LOVED,

until they broke up in 2005, and yeah, reemerging as "Julien-K" in 2008.

Not really a band for "the mainstream" or general "rock music" enthusiast,

they are "underground" and cater to specific niche (industrial/indie crowd).

III. TRACKLISTING

1. "Death To Analog" (5:15)
2. "Someday Soon" (4:12)
3. "Kick The Bass" (3:42)
4. "Technical Difficulties" (4:20)
5. "Systeme De Sexe" (5:26)
6. "Maestro" (3:30)
7. "Forever" (4:29)
8. "Spiral" (3:22)
9. "Nvr Say Nvr" (4:01)
10. "Dystopian Girl" (5:01)
11. "Look At U" (3:47)
12. "Stranded" (3:57)
13. "Disease" (3:56)
14. "Futura (DTA Mix)" (4:29)

IV. TRACK REFERENCE

4. "Technical Difficulties" ★★★★★
5. "Systeme De Sexe" ★★★★★
7. "Forever" ★★★★★
3. "Kick The Bass" ★★★★
2. "Someday Soon" ★★★★
6. "Maestro" ★★★★
10. "Dystopian Girl" ★★★★
1. "Death To Analog" ★★★
11. "Look At U" ★★★
12. "Stranded" ★★★
14. "Futura (DTA Mix)" ★★
13. "Disease" ★★
9. "Nvr Say Nvr" ★
8. "Spiral" ★

V. FAVORITE TRACK

So my favorite track off "Death To Analog" leagues above all the rest is

(track 4) "Technical Difficulties", although, never released as a 'single'

nor seen as much of 'a big deal' to most of the "Julien-K (core) audience',

I LOVED the song, and yeah, it was the closest-sounding song to anything

from the bands previous (and much more successful) incarnation as Orgy

(go look up the song "Dissention", by Orgy, to see what I'm talking about).

But, the best way to sum up "Technical Difficulties" (in words) is, yeah,

like a robot (and the song has robot-style vocals) having an anxiety attack!

Or like Daft Punk trying to play death metal, with synths, rather than guitars.

The song was featured in the Transformers (2007) movie and soundtrack.

VI. OTHER STANDOUT TRACKS

So yeah, another song I really liked off "Death To Analog" was (track 5)

"Systeme De Sexe", which reminded me of Julien-K trying to produce a

more *happier, upbeat* (less cynical) version of Nine Inch Nail's "Closer".

A little fact about this song, JK had put out a 1:45 snippet of the song, like

a year in advance, and I remember just playing it repeatedly, for months,

thinking to myself, if the whole CD sounds like this, I'm fuckin buying it!

And yes indeed, I did end up buying it (in its first week), just so many songs

that blew my mind on this record, another of which was (track 7) "Forever",

I guess you can call the album's "love song", and (track 2) "Someday Soon"

a direct throwback (treat) to the 80's heyday (New Order, most specifically).

VII. LEAST FAVORITE TRACKS

So this record definately has its highs and lows, one of which, many of its

songs have 'cool, catchy intros', most particularly (tracks 1, 9, 13, and 14)

"Death To Analog", "Nvr Say Nvr", "Disease", and "Futura", but yeah, they

tend to fall flat, either a minute (or seconds) in, making you hit the *skip*.

(Track 11) "Look At U" was an okay song, but I highly suggest to all to seek

out the "Deadmau5 Remix", which far and byfar blows 'the original' away.

(Track 3) "Kick The Bass", I guess you can say, is the 'big hit' off the record,

which I hear got alot of play on "PlayboyTV" (for its "adult-themed" video),

but as an overall song, it was okay, they coulda chose a better lead single.

Least fave would have to be (track 8) "Spiral", sorry, this just plain sucks!

VIII. ARTWORK

So the cover art/work for "Death To Analog" is quite interesting, and indeed,

very GOREY, in terms of all the RED PAINT, if its suppose to symbolize

(idunno) BLOOD, I have no idea, but there you see a women "lookin cool"

with her futuristic goggles on, and yeah, splattered in RED PAINT/GOO!

The inlay shows the band members, also, splattered in RED PAINT/GOO!

Obviously, not quite as 'mesmerizing' as, (say) "The Downward Spiral",

but whatever, its the music that counts #1 most, fuck what the cover is.

I did really like the Death To Analog "business card" that came with this

(allowing me full 'mp3 download' of the album, not that, I really need it),

just too bad, most people never heard of "Julien-K", defeats showing it off.

IX. CLOSING THOUGHTS

So there you have my induction of Julien-K's "Death To Analog" (2009),

as well as, Nine Inch Nails' "The Downward Spiral" (1994), both records

of "industrial brilliance", though one clearly *reigns supreme* over the other,

whatever, these were 2 records that hold dear to me, in their own ways.

A little fact, I was actually gonna induct Rihanna's "Good Girl Gone Bad", lol,

(the album that has "Umbrella") into my record collection, this same month,

but I decided to stray off from that, like, I have the actual 'record' (12 inch),

but then I realized, after I bought it, that the album kinda sorta fuckin sucks,

so, I'm not sure if I'm ever gonna 'induct it' (officially) into my collection, ha.

So if somebody out there really 'wants it', sure, you can have it... $5! LOL.

X. PICTURES

(FRONT COVER)

(BACK COVER)

(INLAY, FULL)

(INLAY, LEFT, LYRICS)

(INLAY, RIGHT, LYRICS)

(VINYL 1 & 2)

(VINYL 1, SIDE A)

(VINYL 1, SIDE B)

(VINYL 2, SIDE A)

(VINYL 2, SIDE B)

(DIGITAL DOWNLOAD CARD, SIDE 1)

(DIGITAL DOWNLOAD CARD, SIDE 2)

(ALL TOGETHER)

DIZTURBIA.COM | EPISODE 17 / CODE:GRN | "DIGITAL HOUSE OF HORRORS" | 10/13/14

I. DIGITAL HOUSE OF HORRORS

Sooo, ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls (dickz and cuntz, oops, sorry),
I would like to bring attention to the fact, that yes, in the past couple of days,
I have made some 'stylistic changes' to my website (as well as my twitter),
be that, by the banner you see atop this page, and its partnering twitter
(@ISSUEZZ, see link), and that (yes!), it's got an all-new catchy 'name/title',
this of course being "ISSUEZZ.COM: DIGITAL HOUSE OF HORRORS!" :)
Now what kind of crazy, wacky title is that, and perhaps, could it be (idunno)
all the *COLD MEDICATION* I've ingested the last however many days,
considering that, I'm kinda currently battling THE FLU, these last few days,
or quite possibly, -flu or no flu-, I've just about lost ma goddamn fuckin mind!


II. DIGITAL HOUSE OF HORRORS II

So yes, I'm now referring to my site as, yep... (the) Digital House Of Horrors!
And no, that's not a play off something famous (or infamous), I really felt
those 3 words (plus, of) is what perfectly suits my site and what I bring to it,
the fact that, well, I live a pretty fuckin horrific life (in case you're obviously
familiar with my past writings, and the fact, I'm pretty fucked in the head!),
and it's sheer HORROR, and having it all written, and (indeed) broadcasted
for the world (wide web) to see, in the form of the blog site you see here,
like a house, a DIGITAL HOUSE, in which holds all the lovely (sarcasm)
information that I exploit/leak out about myself, all stemming from the fact,
I have no friends, and nobody likes me, and I wonder the fuck why! Hmmm...


III. DIGITAL HOUSE OF HORRORS III

So yeah, for me to go about my *business* (endless online bantering),
under the title of "Digital House Of Horrors", yeah, not only sounds (ummm)
ULTRA-FUCKED, to say the damn least, and sad to have to say this,
but yeah, it kinda opens 'the door' for me to (you know) be a lil bit more
(what's the word) *CREEPTACULAR*, than I already make myself out to be.
So yeah, you thought I wasn't a big enough (internet) "CREEP" as it is,
yeah, I'm about to *AMP* the fuckin shit out of that, from hereon forward!
Picture me as a modern day (lol) JASON VORHEES/FREDDY KREUGER, 
as I be roaming tha streets (be it, online, lol) hitting up bitches inboxes,
trying to get PU$$Y, only to get BLOCKED instead, but I keep comin back ;)


IV. MANNEQUIN HEAD

So, for some time now (weeks, perhaps months) I have talking about
getting this (yes!) FEMALE MANNEQUIN/DOLL HEAD, and (yes!) have her
serve as a "temp" GIRL FRIEND, you know, until I do get a REAL ONE,
though yeah, for me to be SEEN aligning myself with such *OBJECT*,
lol, obviously does ALOTTT, in hurting my chances of getting a girl friend,
seeing as I indeed plan to TAKE PICTURES *with* the mannequin head.
Just picture it, me taking a selfie with a mannequin head kissin up on me,
oh and of course, me 'not hiding' the fact it's a DOLL HEAD that 'loves me',
and yeah, stressin the fact I can't get a 'real girl' to love me and be mine </3
Real soon, I'm gonna make a blog, showin ya all the heads I been lookin at.



V. BARBIE DOLL

So now, another "idea" that's come to me, in addition to the whole (lol)
*CRAZY* mannequin head thing (as expressed in the previous paragraph),
is that, yes, I may very well be contemplating getting a, yes, BARBIE DOLL,
be that, one that is of a "brown (skin) tone", to match the mannequin head,
which will also going to be one of a "brown (skin) tone", because, you see,
what I want #1 in life (and have been wanting ALL MY ENTIRE DAMN LIFE,
and been unable to get!)  is a GIRL FRIEND, more and most specifically,
a BROWN GIRL FRIEND, doesn't matter of what *origin* or *religion*,
but yeah, I figure while I'm (STILL!!!) waiting for *WHAT'S MEANT TO BE*,
I have this (go ahead and LAUGH!!!) "BROWN BARBIE" doll to fill the void.

VI. IPOD MAKEOVER

So yeah, in another news, I just felt like sharing with the world (wide web),
my latest "Ipod Makeover/Design", attributed mainly, to the help/services of
WRAPPZ.COM (see link), which is a phone/media player customizing site,
that lets you to design your own custom decal skin or hard case, and yeah,
basically, you create it, you pay for it, and WRAPPZ ships it on out to you.
This month, I bid farewell to my 'ISSUES' (which is a band, if youre unaware,
ISSUESSROCK.US, see link), I bid farewell to my ISSUES Ipod design,
of 4-5 months, and bring on in my newest 'SKRILLEX' (a very famous DJ,
if you're unaware who he is, assuming you're really OLD) Ipod design,
themed after his (and my personal most favorite) 2011 record "Bangarang".


VII. IPOD MAKEOVER II

So (there's more...), if you (yes, you, the reader) happen to have (idunno)
an Ipod, or an Iphone, or even the latest Samsung or Blackberry phone,
I would be more than happy to make one for you, and yeah, FOR FREE!!!
I mean, it's kinda comin out of *my personal expenses*, but oh fuckin well,
but I would be more than happy to design a custom phone/ipod design for
someone out there, and yeah, assuming "I am their friend" and everything,
and let me put it on their device, and *voila*, make it look just "damnnn!"
Of course, I'm not going to go this extent, to make a phone/mp3 design
for "your boy friend" (assuming I'm dealing with some dumb bitch, lol), or
I won't do this for "some guy's girl friend", unless, she blows me (literally).


VIII. MANNEQUIN HEAD/BARBIE DOLL

So anyways, going back now on the subject of "me + barbie dolls" LMFAO
(and let's not leave out, mannequin heads), subject I'm sure *many people*
find more 'interesting' than me and my lameass ipod/iphone designs :P
But yeah, I just wanna make note that yeah, I really really really really (lol)
and I mean REALLY am considering acting through on this, need I remind:
me getting a FEMALE MANNEQUIN HEAD, a realistic looking one at best,
as well as, a BROWN-TONED BARBIE DOLL, or maybe of another brand,
and having them serve as MY GIRL FRIEND, and indeed, provide *PICS*.
And yeah, I not only plan (still contemplating) getting this barbie doll 'thing',
but yeah, as well as many 'outfits' to go with it, including BARBIE LINGERIE!

IX. BARBIE LINGERIE

Hahaha, so yeah, I thought I ENLIGHTEN/SCAR you all with the *visuals*
to what (yes!) BARBIE LINGERIE looks like, and available 24/7 on EBAY!
Now, I haven't (well, yet!) boughten any of *this stuff*, nor a doll itself (yet!),
but yeah, it's all basically 'out there', ready for 'whoever' to purchase them,
and yeah, a good possibility that same 'whoever' could very well be ME :)
Depending where life takes me, in the days leading into the (2014) holidays,
because, you see, if it weren't for "the holiday hype", and the fact, that yeah,
IT VERY MUCH HURTS NOT HAVING A GIRL FRIEND UPON THIS TIME,
I wouldn't be contemplating the things (the really, really bad things) that I be
contemplating here, involving myself and (yes!) barbie dolls of all things.


X. THE FUCKIN FLU

So it's quite amazing, indeed, the time I bring this blog to you (10/13/14),
the time in which I have been plagued with THE FLU (sinus and throat),
and yeah, making it all the even better, NO TIME OFF WORK whatsoever,
not to mention the fact, I WORK MOTHERUCKIN RESTAURANT, lol, and
I even told 'em (#RestaurantThatCannotBeNamed, unfortunately), that yeah,
"I AM SICK", and idunno, maybe someone else should *COVER FOR ME*,
but nope, they insist I WORK, despite it all (understaffed we certainly are),
and the fact, I'm also prolonging my sickness, having to keep coming in.
And the best part, the fact I have a VERY WEAK IMMUNE SYSTEM, yeah,
so it won't be DAYS, but infact WEEKS until I fully recover, so boohoo! </3

DIZTURBIA.COM | EPISODE 16 / CODE:BLU | "2014 (A SHIT YEAR FOR DVSNGH) " | 10/06/14

I. 2014 (A SHIT YEAR FOR DVSNGH)

So in the next writing, I talk about the year that was 2014, and indeed,
what a fuckin shitty year it's been for me, in terms of personal decisions,
as well as important calendar dates, being a person who very much takes
his BIRTHDAY serious, as well as "commercial holidays" (ie. Christmas)
and idunno, that *one particular date*, pertaining to people "IN LOVE",
no doubt, the one day I probably take the most serious of all days
(it being VALENTINE'S DAY, if you weren't aware, what I'm talking about).
So I thought I go down all the *key dates*, from the year 2014, and yeah,
inform/remind you all why I am the PISSED OFF individual that I am, and
how I was very much put on this earth to ROT in loneliness and isolation.


II. NEW YEAR'S 2014 (01/01/14)

So yeah, without a doubt, my 2014 was off to a shitty start from 00:00:01
(that means, from the very, very first *second*, if you weren't really sure),
and the reason for that was cause, yeah, I was scheduled for work that night
(at #RestaurantThatCannotBeNamed), be it, that New Year's Eve happened
to fall, FOR THE THIRD STRAIGHT YEAR, on one of my two regular set
late evening/night shifts (Monday and Tuesday) of the week, and though
they (my managers) claim "we do get off early" on New Year's, lol, yeah,
they fuckin let us off only ONE HOUR EARLIER than normal, and yeah,
since the place closes (normally) at 1, yeah, meant "no celebration" for me.
And to note, my manager deliberately did shit, to make me finish up late.


III. VALENTINE'S DAY (02/14/14)

So then there was Valentine's Day, indeed, perhaps my most (let's say)
TENSED... ANTICIPATED... FEARED DAY OF THE YEAR FOR ME,
and yeah, the one day my financial well-being is very much at *risk*, lol,
since yeah, I CAN'T GET A GIRL FRIEND, or ANY GIRL (PERIOD!),
resorted to having to PAY some undeserving cunt (yes, a fuckin ESCORT)
to help make my Valentine's evening "memorable" to say the very least,
and yeah, this was where I met "Jasmine", an escort through Backpage,
to whom I paid $500, plus $200 in hotel, for a night out (including SEX),
in what was supposed to span over a 3 hour time, but I only got half that,
why, cause the hoe left me midway, before we hit (yeah!) the "sex stage".


IV. VICTORIA DAY WEEKEND (05/23/14)


So next thing is Victoria Day Weekend (or "May 2-4" Weekend to some),
a holiday/long weekend I could never really understand, other than (my conclusion) this is Canada, and yeah, us "Canadians" MUST HAVE
a holiday/long weekend EVERY MONTH, so let's find something (fuckin
idiotic) to *celebrate*, so yeah, let's think of something involving (idunno)
QUEEN CUNT VICTORIA, and yeah, make an excuse holiday out of her.
Now what it is I hate about this long weekend is all the hype going onto it,
and how all I would endlessly hear or be asked is "what are you doing for
the long weekend?" or "what you do for the long weekend (by coworkers),
and of course, NOTHING, as I'm excluded from all parties and social circles.

V. MY BIRTHDAYS (MAY 30TH)

So of course, comes "my birthdays" (May 30th + 31st, indeed, both days!),

and why birthday"s" (plural), because, when I feel very much letdown (lol)
by my actual birthday (May 30th), I use the next day (31st) as a "fall back".
So this was a VERY, VERY DEPRESSING birthday to say the very least,
celebrating it ALL BY MYSELF (having NO FRIENDS, not even ONE!),
and the fact I was on "financial lockdown" (limited use of my credit card),
so yeah, had to make the best with the "$100-150" I had on me, at the time,
so on "the 30th", I went (alone! on my bday!) to SECRET'S NIGHTCLUB,
and tho (to my luck!), it was open, hey... only 6 people (minus staff) came!
So clearly, I was not meant to have fun that night, oh well (on to the next!)

VI. MY BIRTHDAYS (MAY 31ST)

So yeah, without doing any big research, I decided on the next night (31st)

to head up (alone!) to Brampton's last existing (yeah...) STRIP CLUB,
this being the "The Office: Gentlemen's Club" (on Steeles and Melanie).
Having done minor research, going in, some sites said it was still running,
but those sites/links apparently hadn't been updated "in quite some time",
so yeah, I decided to bus my way out there, into the dark, industrial area,
only to find the strip club CLOSED (the banner/sign completely faded out).
The taxi driver tells me, all the nearby strip clubs are out in Mississauga,
which for me, meant more bus travel (in order to get there), as well as,
MORE TAXI I would have to pay, to get home (late night), just ain't worth it.

VII. CANADA DAY (07/01/14)

So next, there's Canada Day, which "the people" seem to go WILD over

(dunno why, oh yeah, FIREWORKS!), and yeah, for the third straight year,
this holiday fell on one of my regular set work nights (Mondays, Tuesdays),
so yeah, while "the majority" are having a blast, I had to slave (til past 1AM!)
Now, I *can* (in advance) book the night off, if I too wanted to have a blast,
but having learned from both Valentine's Day and my Birthday (this year),
if I'm gonna book a night off, I better at least "HAVE PLANS!" set, and not
expect them to fall into my lap, otherwise, I'll depress myself (in the end).
Oh and yeah, the bus ride to work that day was so miserable, with people
cramming the (Queen street) buses for either the mall or Chingacousy Park.

VIII. MY VACATION (07/23/14 - 08/14/14)

So I had my vacation (time away from the exhausting restaurant industry),
from July 23rd to August 15th (3 weeks), my uh, "once a year entitled time",
as I like to call it, since I'm in there, week-in/week-out, 48 (straight) weeks,
a time I very much look forward to, despite certain setbacks (me not driving),
I still try to make the best of it, kind of like, idunno... my first vacation (2012),
where I dyed my hair red, and what else, said goodbye to my VIRGINITY!

This year, my vacation included the MOST RUSHED trip (with my parents)
to New York City (36 hours stay time, 20 hours travel), yet another crappy
Niagara Falls outing, a concert that got cancelled (Abandon All Ships), and
of course, me tryin get a DATE thru dating apps, being completely rejected!

IX. HALLOWEEN (10/31/14)

So next, there's the upcoming Halloween, indeed a (commercial) holiday
I'm sure is *FUN* for most people out there, be it, people WITH FRIENDS,
but for me, Halloween is no doubt one of the most PAINFUL DAYS of the
regular calendar year for me, having NO FRIENDS (to celebrate it with),
and then afterwards, having to be exposed to *pictures* (be it, on twitter)
of people HAVING A GOOD TIME, particularly, girls (looking like SLUTS),
and to be reminded (BY GOD) that *this* is indeed what goes on out there,
and that I (DVSNGH, Dave Singh) am FORBIDDED from taking part in...
Like, I can still GO OUT (on a Halloween), but it's GOD pure intention that
I don't HAVE A GOOD TIME, and yeah, be in ENVY of all those who are...

X. CHRISTMAS (12/25/14)

So yeah, safe to say, I am definately a bit "one edge" in terms of Halloween,
in that, I WANNA BE PART OF IT, since I'M FREE (off of work) that night,
but of course, (me) having NO FRIENDS(!),  kinda makes that a bit difficult.
Like, I'm literally SCRAMBLING atm, trying to find SOMEBODY, ANYBODY
(from my nearby area) to do something with (doesn't have to be "sexual"),
so yeah, if that doesn't *pan out*, am I ever be gonna be (more) depressed.
As far as other *important calendar dates*, yeah, there's also Thanksgiving,
but I don't care much for that one, just another excuse holiday/long weekend
for us (lameass) Canadians who require long weekend/holiday every month.
And finally, Christmas, and indeed.. I got full 10 paragraphs to write on that!

DIZTURBIA.COM | EPISODE 15 / CODE:BLK | "DIRTY PANTY BLUES" | 10/03/14

I. DIRTY PANTY BLUES (OPENING)

So, it's a real shame (a real, real crying shame), that I've now come to this.
Now what is "this" I speak of, well, the fact I have (in the last 10 or so days)
lowered myself substantially as a *human being*, lol, if I hadn't set myself
already as low (on the bar) as I have, being the "GIRL FRIEND BEG" I am,
but yeah, for those unaware of the last 3 blogs I put out (see link, link, link),
I not only revealed *THE BIG DEMON*, otherwist be known as, my (uh)
"PANTY FETISH" (yeah, I "DVSNGH" Dave Singh, am deeply, magneticly
attracted to girls/womens DIRTY FUCKIN PANTIES), but the fact that, well,
I have pretty much taken it to a whole new level (of low) in that (get this...),
I am now DIRECTLY asking (online) BITCHES if I can buy their PANTIES.


II. THE MESSAGE

So yeah, let me elaborate a bit more with what I just admitted right there,
I am downright *directly* (yes) messaging random girls and women (well, lol,
ones who pass "the physical test") online, if I can buy their 'dirty underwear',
not (or kind of) realizing, lol, how much HUGE fool I'm making of myself,
also having kept in mind, that a good, good majority (I'd say about 75-80%)
are going to REJECT the whole notion of it, and yeah, that I should probably
expect a strong 'backlash' (or in other words, verbal spewage, lol) from a
good number of that same 75-80% (of BITCHES, who reject my 'request').
Now, it's not like I'm asking to have THE (DIRTY) PANTIES for "FREE!",
not that stupid (of course), but no, I indeed issued a $100 bounty for them.


III. THE ($100) BOUNTY

So yes, I put out a "$100 bounty", this meaning $100 out of MY expense
(in $$ bills, not cheques, or gift cards) going into the hands of the recipient
to whom consents to the deal, assuming of course, they really do (ummm)
*want the money* (in exchange for *the panties*), and not wasting my time.
Now, of course, there is a strong likelihood of me coming across 'people'
not only with the intent to waste my time (in addition to theirs), but yeah,
willing to *trick me* or idunno *rob me* or perhaps just plain *humiliate me*
for being the *TARD* that I am, I guess, in an effort to try to "wisen me up",
so they can say "let this be a lesson (to me, DVSNGH), not to do the shit
you 'were' doing (the panty thing), unless you wanna be *fucked* again).


IV. EXPERIENCE (OR LACK THEREOF)

So yeah, it's to be noted here, though I have had 2 face-to-face dealings,
when it comes to the whole "DIRTYPANTY-4-CASH" thing, via through
Craigslist ad posters (one a female, and other, a male claiming to had
*don't laugh* been selling his sister's panties), but in terms of "the reverse",
as in, "me" being the one to put *the deal* on the table, what can I tell ya,
I am very much *inexperienced*, and yeah, pretty much *clueless* (lol),
as far as the "step-by-step" procedures go, say, some girl/woman actually
AGREES TO IT (to indeed, yes, sell me their panties), as far as "step 2",
tho, my heart (as well as, dick! lol) wants me to DO IT, there's a part of me
that's a slight bit hesitant, and unsure, if I should really be DOING THIS!


V. (NO) RAPE PLAN/SCENARIO

So I would like to make it clear, the whole me *ATTEMPTING* to (yes...)
buy a girl/woman's DIRTY PANTIES (for a plain and simple sum of $100)
is not at all in any way of a RAPE SCENARIO, or means for me to, yeah,
try to lure an individual into my home, or myself into an individual's home
(or any other private boundary), and yeah, go ahead and *GET SOME* :P
Had I been a female (and a non-grotesque one, just to add, lol) and I was
doing what I'm doing (assuming, I'm a bi-female, with a PANTY FETISH),
the presumption of *RAPE* wouldn't even occur, but yeah, since I'm a guy,
one can only speculate whether I'm a rapist or indeed a really good guy.
Having had sex ONLY ONCE IN MY LIFE, safe to conclude, I am no rapist.


VI. "TDOTWIRE" TEST RUN I

So yeah, at the time of this writing (10/05/14), I'd only done one *test run*,
as far as the whole (you know) "me messaging random girls/women online
(lol) asking if I could buy their DIRTY UNDERWEAR for the tag of $100!"
and that *test run* took place on the afternoon/evening of 10/02/14, indeed,
on the (Toronto-based) social networking site, TDOTWIRE (see link),
which yes, STILL FUNCTIONS to this very day, despite the fact, over 80%
of its (past) usership had abandoned and moved on (*to better places*) :P
And as far as how that whole *test tun* went, needless to say, it BOMBED!
Although, and how ironic it was, THE FIRST PERSON who did reply back
ACTUALLY HAD INTEREST, leading me to *believe*, I had some HOPE!


VII. "TDOTWIRE" TEST RUN II

So, lol, despite at the time of sending out my "messages" (spamming, boo!),
I thought I was doing dumbest thing ever, but like *that*, to my surprise,
the first person to had responded to it, yeah, actually showed legit interest,
and was in fact, ready for "step 2", all just a matter of when 'I was ready',
and while the display pic of 'this person' did pass "the physical test" (lol),
upon doing some further investigating on this person (with the instagram),
kinda noticed some things a little off, one being the fact, she's quite in fact,
can't say "ugly", but yeah, not someone I'd wanna PAY for their (you know),
and yeah, also looked like she's a single mom (2 big-time turn-offs there),
so yeah, needless to say, "negotiations" kinda faltered between her and I.


VIII. "TDOTWIRE" TEST RUN III

So, how about this for a *SWERVE*, the fact the FIRST REPLY was a
(partial) WIN! (lol), only to be followed by LOSS! after LOSS! after LOSS!
Yeah, despite the fact, the majority of the REJECTIONS came by form of
NO REPLIES, this being confirmed, by the "users who viewed me" page,
showing all the bitches who viewed my message and went to check on me,
but declined in wanting to reply back (most them obviously being cowards).
But as far as all the replies I got, following that first ("fluke?") reply, yeah,
they were all quite *negative*, lol, but am I gonna let that discourage me?!
NOPE! Which is safe to say, once I get my shit together, and my motivation
fully intact, I'll be taking my "perverted quest" to all other social platforms.


IX. NEW DIRECTION

So yeah, despite 'the voices' (the angel) telling me, what I'm doing here
(with the whole DIRTY PANTY thing) is BAD, and yeah, pretty much like
me pouring ACID on all future hopes of me getting a GIRL FRIEND (online),
while I have 'other voices' (the devil) saying what I'm doing here is GOOD
(in a twisted, demented way), because say, if I AM to meet up with bitches
(through my ultra-perverted "spam messaging"), and of course, it goes well,
I may have very well have founded myself my very FIRST GIRL FRIEND <3
I mean, lol, once she stops taking my "payments" for her dirty underthingies,
and assures me, "we're now friends", and that I don't gotta pay her no more,
yeah, always the possibility, this "new direction" may be what's best for me.


X. DIRTY PANTY BLUES II (IN CLOSING)

Andso, in closing, I guess I pretty much said all that needs to be said here
in regards to the whole INSANITY (if indeed, you did read parts "I" to "IX")
going on here, and I don't mean say this to alarm motherfuckas out there,
but the RREEAALL CRAZINESS has yet to even be started, if you ask me.
I'm probably gonna be wishing, sometime in the not-so-very-distant future,
that things be "pleasant and peaceful" the way things are right the fuck now
(Monday, October 6th, 2014, 2:45AM), before, I well... did/posted some shit,
I shouldn't have done (ie. hit the "send/submit" button to) and whatnot,
seeing as I'm no stranger when it comes to receiving "threats" from people.
So, I guess I'll have to see where life takes me, hopefully, to a better place <3