DIZTURBIA.COM | EPISODE 22 / CODE:RED | "THE MIDDLE FUCKIN FINGER" | 11/24/14

I. THE MIDDLE FUCKIN FINGER

So the name of this blog is indeed, yes, THE MIDDLE FUCKING FINGER,

and it's in regards to MY MIDDLE FINGER, and yeah, the fact I like to use it,

oh and yeah, the fact I have been using it quite the regularly (LMFAO)

in recent weeks, and that yeah, I indeed have it aimed AT certain peoples,

what peoples are these, might you be wondering, tha motherfuckin police,

LOL, I'm just joking (ummm, I don't I'd be able to get off FREE with that),

but yeah, I got no shame making it PUBLIC to the world, the fact that (um)

GIVE THE MIDDLE FINGER TO ALL *YOUNG COUPLES* PASSING BY,

and yeah, I DO IT (gleefully) right to their motherfuckin faces, purposely, 

indeed, in means of *PROTEST*, as I very much DESPISE the sight of it.

II. THE MIDDLE FUCKIN FINGER II

Not exactly sure where I picked up such (rather, um, dirty) HABIT from,

I certainly didn't pick it up from any one individual in particular, but yeah,

I believe I started doing this about the time of the 2009/2010 holidays,

and yeah, been doing it ALLS THE TIMES, since then (all year around),

so yeah, let me say it again, that I (yes) give THE FINGER to couples

who (awww) HOLD HANDS (IN PUBLIC) and show public affection,

and yeah, I don't it *with laughter*, let's get that (point) fuckin straight,

I do it with full fuckin ANGER, and yeah, I very much want the couple, especially, THE BITCH (in the couple) to see it (my finger) and my face,

to let them know, I FUCKIN HATE (DESPISE!) their presence on earth!

III. THE MIDDLE FUCKIN FINGER III

So yeah, pretty intense sounding stuff there (last line, previous paragraph),

and indeed, coming straight from tha heart (no acting involved in any this),

but yeah, it's something (upon the sight of it) that hits me to my very core,

and yeah, makes me STRONGLY wish I lived in a country where, lol,

engaging in *public affection* (and hand-holding bullshit) is prohibited.

Personally, the only people who should be "holding hands" are those:

LEGALLY MARRIED (not those who are "dating" or *pretend married*),

THE YOUNG (under 13) and THE ELDERLY (over 45), and of course,

THE HANDICAPPED (who can't fully think or operate for themselves),

aside from, those I mentioned, no one should be *holding hands (in public)*.

IV. THE MIDDLE FUCKIN FINGER IV

Perhaps you can say, I'm a (lol) TICKING TIME-BOMB, waiting to explode,

and yeah, perhaps, waiting to *GO OFF* on some (unlucky) young couple,

and though, I don't carry any *ARMS* on me (thank goodness for society),

hey, there's still (you know) MY FISTS, as well as other *USEFUL PROPS*

(like, idunno, HOT COFFEE) one could use to (um) attack people with.

But yeah, there was a blog I can recall I had written, not too long ago,

in which I admitted a desire, in yeah, venging out against a young couple,

even if it means, well, sacrificing my (current) CLEAN CRIMINAL RECORD!

Not going to say, for sure, I intend on going through on such "plans",

just depends, you know, how far the "holiday spirit" brings me down </3

V. THE MIDDLE FUCKIN FINGER V

So I thought I talk about an 'incident' that happened not too long ago,

a rather small incident, though, in which I was sitting alone in the mall

(no need to mention which mall, you should know which one automatically),

where I have (yes!) THE FINGER to this young Indian dickwad couple,

lol, and the bitch *took notice* of it, and suddenly stopped in her tracks

(while still in handlock to her dickhead boyfriend), and looked at me,

wondering what my deal was, and yeah, who exactly the fuck I was,

and then came a mad, angry look (at me) on her paki, dickhead boyfriend,

and yeah, time kinda froze still for me there, unsure to what might happen,

so expect that to be the first of many instances, thanks to my middle finger.

VI. THE MIDDLE FUCKIN FINGER VI

So one might say, the music I listen to (metal, and EDM, but moreso metal), 

while it may not be "the direct cause" to why I feel the way I currently do,

but perhaps it does play a (idunno) *contributing factor* in the whole mess.

But yeah, since the start of the "festive season" (mid-Novemberish time),

I've kinda been kickin it up a bit, in terms of the rock'n'rolla, and yeah,

most particularly, music with excessive *cussing* in it (bands for example:

Limp Bizkit, Papa Roach, Slipknot), and music with just a *dark tone* to it.

So yeah, in addition to the whole *insanity* with the 'middle finger' deal,

need I remind ya, what I got shootin into my ears, via "the iPod Touch",

it ain't doing much to calm the flames (perhaps adding gas to the fire?).

VII. THE MIDDLE FUCKIN FINGER VII

So I would like to make note, come "December, 26th, 2014" (Boxing Day),

it will mark *2 years* since I last went to Square One mall (Mississauga),

indeed, a mall/place I would often attend *religiously*, call it my 2nd home,

and then, *LIKE THAT*, I made the (sudden) decision to abandon it.

Why, oh I'll tell you why, cuz of *YOUNG COUPLES HOLDING HANDS*,

yes, because of *THEM* specifically (the fact they bring me down).

Though, *THEY* exist everyone, but one thing I seemed to pick up on,

was that THAT MALL (Square One) had the byfar highest concentration/

ratio of YOUNG COUPLES HOLDING HANDS (per every 100 people)

moreso than any other mall (I know), hence, why I now no longer go there.

VIII. THE MIDDLE FUCKIN FINGER VIII

So yeah, the whole deal (in my mind) was basically, was never to step foot

into Square One mall ever again, for as long as I remained a "single" (man),

a promise to myself that's now (soon) to reach the 2 year plateau mark,

and indeed, there ain't a single "event/sale/pitch* to ever lure/trick me

into breaking the (promise) hold of BOYCOTTING SQUARE ONE (MALL)!

I won't even go in, if I had to meetup with somebody (we meet outside of it),

nor would I even go in as part of a 'date' (one-on-one or group date).

By time I do intend on going back, whether it be next year, or the year after

(OR THE YEAR AFTER, HOWEVER LONG MUST I REMAIN "SINGLE"),

I'm hoping for it to be one of those "surreal (I finally made it!)" moments.

XI. THE MIDDLE FUCKIN FINGER IX

So eventually, the day is gonna come, where *rebellious* my middle finger,

lol, will indeed get me in *heat* with somebody (or numerous somebodies),

like (say) for example, "mall security", if they were to spot me giving out

*tha (middle) finger* to numerous dickwad couples *holding hands*, lol,

they might presume I did *that* just to try to cause trouble or start fights,

when no, it's not that way at all, I'm mainly *doing it* as means of protest.

Though yeah, eventually, there's gonna be some dickhead and/or his bitch,

who's not gonna take kindly to *it*, and indeed, could 'confront me' on *it*,

and if so is the case, I look forward to PROUDLY letting 'him or her' know,

I DESPISE the sight of HOLDING HANDS, so yeah, THIS is what I do!

X. THE MIDDLE FUCKIN FINGER X

Aside from the fact, I HATE THE SIGHT OF COUPLES HOLDING HANDS!

There's even more to it, like for instance, when I'm eating or trying to enjoy

a cup of coffee, and a YOUNG COUPLE, sits next to or across from me,

yes, it VERY MUCH ANGERS ME, to the point I have to turn myself to

face the other way (so THEY are out of my sight) or completely relocate.

And of course, there's motherfuckin' public transit, where not a day goes by,

I gotta see YOUNG COUPLES on it (which obviously ANGERS me).

Now when I go on the bus, and I see ONE, I simply sit far from THEM,

but when I'm already on the bus, and one of THEM sit anywhere near me,

yes, (no exaggerating) I leave my seat in a rage, and relocate elsewhere.

DIZTURBIA.COM | EPISODE 21 / CODE:BLU | "MASSIVE CASE (OF WRITER'S BLOCK)" | 11/14/14

I. MASSIVE CASE (OF WRITER'S BLOCK)

Hahaha, so yeah, it's pretty sad that it's come down to this (yes, *this*),
and yeah, what I mean by *T H I S*, is me pointing out my recent case of,
well, WRITER'S BLOCK, and if you don't know the term "writer's block",
it's when a 'writer' suddenly becomes, yeah, unable to produce 'writings',
happens to writers in all fields (authors, musicians, scripters, bloggers, etc),
and apparently, it's gotten to ME, here in the last (idunno) 2-to-3 weeks.
So yeah, with *this blog*, this here is indeed my *attempt* to get out of it.
Now, another factor playing into my "writer's block", is my (uh) day job,
be it, that I work a restaurant job (#RestaurantThatCannotBeNamed),
and yeah, I've had a *slight increase* in hours, and decrease in 'days off'.


II. 12.20.14 DEADLINE (TO FIND A GIRL FRIEND)

So need I stress the point, that for me to have "writer's block" at this time
(THIS FUCKIN' TIME!) of year, yeah, as we approach the 2014 HOLIDAYS,
and the fact that, uh, I have until 12.20.14 (that's December 20th, 2014)
to successfully FIND A GIRL FRIEND, and yeah, let me repeat it for ya,
I HAVE A DEADLINE OF 12.20.14 IN ORDER TO FIND A GIRL FRIEND!
And yeah, between now (11.10.14 and 12.20.14), I should be doing (idunno)
EVERYTHING IN MY GOD GIVEN POWER to try to make THAT happen!
But unfortunately, when looking back (at myself) at the last month-or-so,
I can honestly say that I haven't been utilizing my time the way I should be,
and if I don't fix it *RIGHT NOW*, yeah, I'm gonna regret (hard) it later on.


III. ALCOHOLIDAYS (ARE COMIN)

So yeah, eventhough *THE GOAL* (for me) is to find a GIRL FRIEND
(this 2014 holiday season), yeah, I'm (kinda) under the slight impression,
that I WON'T, lol, especially as I go deeper into the month of December,
and when *THE PRESSURE* just continues to MOUNT AND MOUNT
(heading towards my proposed deadline of 12.20.14: to find a girl friend).
Just letting you all know, there's gonna be some, well... ALCOHOLIDAYS!
Days, where *THE SADNESS* (of tryin to find a girl friend, but just can't)
is gonna be so overwhelming, that yeah, I may indeed have to call upon
THE DEMONS (OF ALCOHOL) to help, um, *enlighten me* on occasion.
And when I say "alcohol", I'm not talkin beer, oh I mean *hard stuff* (rum).


IV. MASSIVE CASE (OF WRITER'S BLOCK) II

So I should point out, the previous (uh) 3 paragraphs, you see before this,
you know how long it took me to write that out, let's see, I started 4:15PM,
and now I write this, 6:20PM, taking me over 2 HOURS to think that out!
Yeah, shouldn't take me 2 whole freakin hours to write 3 paragraphs, hm,
but when you get hit with "writer's block", yeah, I guess that's what happens.
As I be writing this, I feel a section of my brain (or mind) feeling somewhat,
ummm, fatigued (I guess you can say), as if it doesn't want to take part
in this "writing exercise", and that I should maybe (idunno) *wait* until
I get that 'writing itch' back, rather than *force myself* (as I be doing here)
to get this blog out to the world, but do I got time to *wait* shit out, nope.


V. MANNEQUIN HEAD, GIRL FRIEND

So yeah, I've been writing about *THIS* quite a bit in recent months, lol,
the idea of, yes, "ME" buying a female mannequin head (online, of course),
and having "IT" serve as, yes, *MY GIRL FRIEND* (let me repeat it for ya),
ME BUYING A PLASTIC DOLL HEAD AND MAKING IT MY GIRL FRIEND!
If, of course, I am UNSUCCESSFUL in my achieving MY MAIN GOAL
of finding, yes, an actual REAL, HUMAN GIRL FRIEND (by 12/20/2014).
I'm not lying or exaggerating in any way, when I say this, but everyday,
yes, every single fucking day, I take time looking at "mannequin heads",
seeing who/where (online) sells them, and of course, trying to find (lol)
"THE ONE" (head) most resembling the ideal girl I want (but can't get).


VI. MY SIZE BARBIE (FIRST THOUGHTS)

So I thought this was a bit interesting  to note, but yeah, sometime between
this paragraph and the previous, I stumbled upon something, upon doing a
Google Search, and yeah, I discovered something called "My Size Barbie"
and what this is, is, well... the biggest, tallest standing Barbie doll (LOL)
manufactured for the public, yeah, standing in at 38 INCHES! (3 feet tall!).
Not a new creation, by any means, having been first introduced to the toy market in 1992, with its last version in 2010, before its discontinuation.
So yeah, when online searching, to see if an "adult-sized" Barbie head (lol)
was ever brought to the (toy) market, nope, none were ever made (damn),
but then I came across, "My Size Barbie", which really did intrigue me.


VII. MY SIZE BARBIE (SECOND THOUGHTS)

So when I first came across "My Size Barbie", yeah, I was laughing at it,
especially, when seeing pictures of it (on Google Image Search) of lil kids
standing next to it, some of whom were shorter than the (3 foot) doll itself,
I initially blew it off, also being that (not to sound racist) your standard Barbie, "Blonde haired, blue eyed, fair skin" wasn't really *my type* :P
So I assumed they didn't create, you know, "other (skin) coloured" barbies,
but how about that, I searched, and I found Black and Spanish versions too.
And yeah, did the Spanish version look good or what, needless to say,
it kinda changed 'my perception' on what I thought about "My Size Barbie".
So yeah, now I'm thinking of getting, yes... A MY SIZE BARBIE (DOLL)! :O


VIII. MASSIVE CASE (OF WRITER'S BLOCK) III

I just wanna state the fact, that the first 5 paragraphs of this very blog
was indeed a pain on the brain, taking me about (let's see) 6 hours (?),
and it's not like I couldn't think of stuff to say, oh, I got TONNES a shit
on my mind atm, I need to let out, but it seems like a *STRANGE FORCE*
(FROM ABOVE) is trying prevent me from getting my words/message out :P
And no, I'm not one of those peoples  who "hear voices" (in their head), lol,
I may be a bit on the (ummm) *psycho edge*, no denying that, but yeah,
I really sense there's some sorta (idunno) *evil entity*, I wouldn't say
"in possession" of my soul, but I'd more say (um) "messing with my spirit".
Especially considering my recent fascination with mannequin heads/dolls.


IX. MASSIVE CASE (OF WRITER'S BLOCK) IV

So I'd like to quickly point out, the last 3 paragraphs of this blog here
were all written within an hour's span (yeah, I'm obsessively keeping track
the time it's taking me to write this blog, pretty fucking sad), but anyways.
Oh and yeah, now part of my slight increase in *writing production*, lol,
might have to do with the fact, yeah, I decided take this blog 'on the road',
as I write > this paragraph < on location, BCC (Bramalea City Centre) mall.
I'm kinda getting the feeling, my room might be infested with DEMONS, lol,
and yeah, those very *DEMONS* may be to blame for my "writer's block",
especially when, in my bedroom, it's kinda hard to keep off (um) PORN,
for a '2 hour period', and yeah, no wonder I'm having writing difficulties.


X. MASSIVE CASE (OF WRITER'S BLOCK) V

So yeah, just to sum up what the fuckin point of this blog is, which btw,
took me a whole 24 hours to write (24 hours to do 10 paragraphs?! ouch),
yeah, it's indeed for me to remind the world, once again... about 12.20.14!
and the fact, I have literally 40 DAYS, to find a (real, human) GIRL FRIEND,
and yeah, if I can't get one, I guess I must settle for *ALTERNATIVES*
(what those "alternatives" are, well, they're already mentioned in this blog).
But yeah, being a firm believer in GOD (yeah, that cocksucking asshole!)
that I am, I'm just gonna do everything in the best of my ability (these next
40 days... AIMING DESPERATELY HARD TO FIND A GIRL FRIEND <3),
and see, whether or not, TIS THE SEASON it was indeed *MEANT TO BE*.

DIZTURBIA.COM | EPISODE 20 / CODE:BLU | "ABANDON ALL SHIPS (R.I.P.)" | 11/07/14

I. ABANDON ALL SHIPS (REST IN PEACE)

So I just wanted to devote a blog posting, to give a special Rest In Peace,
to one of my favorite bands, to whom I recently discovered had *disbanded*,
this being Toronto-based metalcore band, Abandon All Ships (2006-2014).
Indeed, not just "one of" my fave current rock bands, I'd easily say "Top 5".
(Current Top 5: Korn, Slipknot, Asking Alexandria, Issues, AWOLNATION).
Sadly, the reason for the breakup of "AAS" (unlike many band breakups)
was not due to 'creative differences' or '(growing) animosity within the band',
but simply because, their music was just not appreciated by the masses,
although (me saying) "not appreciated" is kinda putting it mildly, cuz they
not only had a fanbase, but they had haters, and quite a legion of them.


II. DISCOVERING ABANDON ALL SHIPS

So I first came across Abandon All Ships, in spring 2011, upon skimming
through the "2010 Warped Tour Compilation", which had featured their hit
single (and biggest-hit-to-date) "Take One Last Breath" (see youtube clip),
a song, which I hadn't realized at its time, had created a huge buzz wave,
right here in my homeland of Canada, just in the previous summer (2010),
it even lead them winning "MuchMusic Video Of The Year" (award) in 2011.
Now yeah, I indeed stopped paying attention to MuchMusic, since 2002,
upon realizing, how much MuchMusic is indeed a waste of fucking time,
and that I didn't need to be "guided" anymore into what I should listen to,
but yeah, had I still been watching it, I mighta discovered AAS a lil sooner.


III. ABANDON ALL SHIPS SOUND

So what I liked about Abandon All Ships was that they were a "fusion band",
meaning, a band trying to blend different music genres, within each song.
Though, Abandon All Ships may not been the first band to had ever infused
"heavy metal" with "dance/techno/house" music, nonetheless, the formula
they had created was unique and different from what I'd already heard.
They sounded like a band who wanted to lay down the (heavy) riffs, and
give everything the 'metal fan' wanted (riffs, double-bass drums, etc etc.),
but in terms of 'vocals', they had 2 vocalists, one who provided "screams",
and yeah, wasn't quite good at it, and another who sang the "soft" vocals,
and then AUTO-TUNED it, lol, tho I personally liked it... the masses did not.


IV. GEEVING (2010 RECORD)

So upon discovering AAS, and their hit single "Take One Last Breath"
(from the 2010 Warped Tour Compilation), I went and seeked a download
of Abandon All Ship's first record, entitled "Geeving" (2010, Rise Records),
hoping to hear more of that same, amazing sound (incl. auto-tuned vocals,
despite the huge detest most people have against that style/effect of vocal),
and was I ever more-than-pleased, though, it didn't strike me hard enough
to wanna buy their CD, get their t-shirt, see them perform live (at the time),
I felt like this was a band "of the future" with many good records to come.
Little did I realize, they ended up being just a 'fad band', seeing as how
the band would have less-and-less fanfair with each record that came after.


V. INFAMOUS (2012 RECORD)

So in the summer of 2012, AAS released their second record, "Infamous",
(2012, Rise Records), continuing with their musical style, "electronicore"
(internet term, for 'rock/metal' + 'euro/house'), and indeed, continuing on
with *heavily* auto-tuned vocals, much to the dismay of the masses, lol,
some going as far as labeling them "Heavy Metal's Equivalent to "Ke$ha",
(the singer most known for auto-tune singing, as well as, driving it to death).
As for the record ("Infamous") itself, as much as I (personally) LOVED IT,
it didn't really go over too well, in terms of both 'sales' and '(record) reviews',
due in part to the HATE following the band amassed, as well as the fact,
the chosen singles ("Infamous", "August") to push the record were horrible.


VI. FOREVER LONELY (SONG)

So the one song for me here, and perhaps my fave AAS song of all-time
came off this record ("Infamous"), this being "Forever Lonely" (track 8),
indeed, the song I musta played the MOST (on-repeat) of all their songs,
need I have to explain (in detail) why it is like it, just hear it for yourself
(see link), but take caution (when listening), it's a lil on the "dark" edge,
as well as the fact, it's a bit *LOUD* (quite the, uh, emotional track it is).
Though, I can't really connect with the song's (lyrical) verses, as it relates
to "relationship problems" (having to do with some guy not trusting his girl),
but I connect with the song's title "Forever Lonely", being the fact that, I live
an isolated life, having NO FRIENDS, and NO ONE wanting be my friend.


VII. MALOCCHIO (2014 RECORD)

So, considering the fact their first 2 records received huge (um) scrutiny,
from all sides of the spectrum, from "the mainstream", bitching over their
(repeated) use of auto-tuned/over-produced vocals, and "the underground"
(or *metal purists*) bitching how the other vocalist "can't scream right" (?),
and yeah, the fact (andso I heard alot) they really suck as a "live band",
you would kinda think, 'the writing was on the wall', either Abandon All Ships
were gonna disband, before a "third record" would ever be considered,
or they would at least make some changes (to their sound) for the better,
and yes indeed, come time for their third record "Malocchio" (which is,
Italian for "Evil Eye"), they made changes, ie. no more auto-tune vocals!


VIII. MALOCCHIO (2014 RECORD) II

So yeah, in February (2014), Abandon All Ships released what would be
their third (and final) album "Malocchio" (2014, Rise Records), a record,
bytheway, that received little-to-no hype (well, outside of facebook, and
a "lyric video" on YouTube for the album's first single "Reefer Madness")
upon its release, kinda making me wonder, if this was done intentionally,
by their record label, either cuz, they were done (/dissatisfied) with AAS,
considering, they (the label) did hype their previous record ("Infamous"),
and yeah, it completely bombed, and noticed the band is seen as *a joke*,
so yeah, if they have them 'on contract' for "one more record", hmmm,
they (the label) might as well, get it out of the way, and -drop- them (?).


IX. MALOCCHIO (2014 RECORD) III

So, that's kinda my theory as to why Abandon All Ships indeed chose to
(wait for it...) ABANDON SHIP!!! (lmfao, sorry, but just had to been said).
Now, as far as "Malocchio" as a music record goes, it was fucking amazing,
in terms of melody, songwriting, and production (minus, of course, the lyrics,
cuz if you weren't aware to it, AAS's lyrics are the absolute fuckin shits, lol),
but this was a band tryin put out one of the most melodic metal records ever,
yet sadly, there was a huge lack of audience (and label) support behind it,
instead, given to other labelmates' 'Memphis May Fire' and 'Of Mice & Men',
2 of the most generic-ass sounding metalcore bands going strong, atm,
but then again, who cares about "melody", all about "the chords" (right?!).


X. ABANDON ALL SHIPS CONCERT (8/11/14)

So lastly, I wanna talk about the Abandon All Ships concert (08/11/14),
coming to my very city of Brampton, which I 'was' planning to buy tickets
and go to, despite the fact (having heard many reviews and from seeing
Youtube clips) that they kinda suck as a "live performance band", lol, but I
was mainly going out of "loyalty" (and it was gonna be my first concert in
7 YEARS, as I'm not much of a concert guy), but yeah, how awesome was it,
they (headliners) bailed outta the show (2 weeks before), leaving behind,
yeah, 4 other bands I never heard of, nor give a fuck to wanna hear (lol),
and yeah, a month later, they announced their break up on facebook (awe),
and that they would be playing their farewell show, 09/25/14, in Toronto :P

DIZTURBIA.COM | EPISODE 19 / CODE:BLK | "DIRTY PANTY PURSUIT" | 10/27/14

I. DIRTY PANTY PURSUIT

So, a few weeks ago, I kinda went and did something a lil (idunno) dumb,
lol, and no, upon the time of 'doing it' I was not *high, intoxicated, nor under
the influence of anything*, and yeah, might be hard for some to believe
I REALLY WAS 100% SOBER and clear-minded, at the time of doing this,
but yes, this is indeed what happened (just a few weeks back), so yeah,
I decided to go scouring on the Tdotwire (see link) online social network,
(at one time, a trending, popular social network, which actual decent people,
now just an irrelevant hub, consumed mostly by pimps/dealers, and hoes),
and yeah, I decided to go around asking G's, if I can buy their 'dutty' panties,
and lol, from what you're gonna see, didn't really work out so well for me.


II. CATHARSIS

So starting things off is a reply from a girl by the handle "Catharsis", who,
I guess you can say, responded (somewhat) "positively" to my *request*
lol, of buying her 'used panties', and I'm guessing she was *down for it*
(considering, I was indeed throwing $100 at her for it, that's alotta dough),
and yeah, woulda been sweet, had I replied when the opportunity was hot.
I did reply still, tho a tad bit late (2 weeks later), so I doubt it'll ever happen.
And speaking of "hot", just look at her pictures, she is levels beyond *hot*,
which such beauty, especially with those set of lips, I'm pretty damn sure,
if she tried, she be able to suck lot more than just $100 outta my pockets :P
But yeah, what else can I say, she gave me the opportunity (and I blew it).

III. JUST_ME_14

So here we have someone now by the username "just_me_14", and yeah,
her reply to my message/request was indeed that of "??", isn't that great.
Either she is really dumb, or 'english' just isn't her main deal, whatever
(and my message was written, yes, in 100% clear/understandable english).
So yeah, take a good look at this chick's pics, no fuckin doubt a 'hooker',
(if selfies in hotel bathrooms, in slutty outfits, wasn't a big enough sign)
and yeah, that's kinda what TDW (Tdotwire) has come to now, in 2014,
a "social network" frequented mainly by pimps, dealers, druggies, and yes,
hoes, like the one I'm talking about right here, this is where you find them.
Be that, she's a hooker, I don't think I'd really wanna be buying her junk. 


III. SWEET_PRINCESS3

So next is a girl by username "SweetPrincess3", to whom replied back
saying "Are You Serious", not sure entirely, the tone in which it was asked,
if indeed, she had 'interest', or was wondering what kinda *crack* I was on.
Judging by what I see, she doesn't look like no hooker (unlike, previous 2),
and in fact, a common, everyday girl (not a whole lot of those on TDW
these days), and yes, when it comes to me and 'sick and twisted' sense (lol)
of wanting a girl's panties, so I can, yes... (sniff and lick and chew on them),
I kinda prefer they come from a "common, everyday girl", as opposed to
ones from a (um) "sex-trade worker", cause of (you know) all the *traffic*
going on, in-and-out of *down there*, lol, if you understand my point.


IV. BONNIEEVANS

So here we have "BonnieEvans", and yeah, to say she is "dumb" (lmfao)
would surely be an understatement, though, to her credit she (sorta) knows
how to read, since she did ask me, why do I want "dirty panties?" (hmmm,
good fuckin question, lol), but yeah, my attempts in explaining this to her,
maybe I needed to have translated it into ebonics (tawkin lyke dis) first,
for her to 'get it', but yeah, I musta overworked her lil, tiny pea-sized brain,
as all she could respond back to me with is "okay", and what else, "okay"
(yeah, those were her exact last 2 replies back to me, "okay" and "okay").
You'll find alot of BonnieEvans's on TDW, young black girls, who look good
on the outside, but just empty on the inside, in terms of brains/personality.


V. KAYELOVE

So yeah, considering what you've read about me, through this same blog
or whatnot, I kinda should be the last person to judge others on intelligence,
seeing as I am "the fool" going around asking G's if I can buy their undies,
so yeah, I guess that makes me lose some "credibility points" (lmfao) there,
but I don't care, I realize I'm right now at one of the lowest peaks of my life,
and yeah, since nobody really cares to wanna help pick me 'off the ground',
I guess I'll just keep *doing what it is I do* (being the fucktard that I am) :)
So I got a hate response from a "kayelove", in which she called me "dirt", lol,
but yeah, she's a fat pig (see pictures), who seems to love to hit the clubs,
too bad, she's the epitome of the girl at the club, you don't want eyeing you.


VI. CECCI101

So here we have "Cecci101", and yeah, not quite sure what her deal is,
if she is indeed a HOOKER (from the obvious weave, the bogus eyelashes,
the 5-to-10 pounds of make-up, slutty wardrobe, and of course, my favorite,
selfies in the hotel bathroom), or if she's just a ordinary (non-skank) girl.
Interestingly enough, she doesn't have the mindset of hooker, because
(from the response I got from her), she's apparently a woman of 'morales'
and yeah, lol, she apparently went far in trying to "tear me a new asshole",
saying how I'm a guy who "probably can't get any", um, NO FUCKIN DUH!
That's the whole point of my website, to stress the fact, I don't *get any* and
can't *get any*, and will never *get any* (no matter how hard I try to get it).


VII. TRINI_MAMI_1

So next we have is "Trini_Mami_1", and yes, quite hard for me to believe,
I would fuckin go and ask *her*, if I can buy her *you know*, cause I mean,
just *look at her*, LOL, quite (visually) 'disgusting' to say the very least.
Part of 'my pleasure' in panties is that *it* belongs to (or once belonged to)
a girl/woman that is "desirable", and yeah, you wish you could *fuck* (lol),
with *her*, lol, would probably take *lots of alcohol* to wanna go fuck that.
Now the fact, she did respond back "open to the idea", of *you know*
(her selling off her *dirty junk* to me), yeah, I tried to have an 'open mind'
(putting aside her whole, um, ugliness) and get this thing going with her,
but mannn, she is stupid as fuck can be, so I just gave up (for the better).


VIII. SEXI_CHICK

So here we have "sexi_chick", who is in fact not really sexi, but then again,
compared to the previous chica I spoke of (Trini_Mami_1), she's definately
a couple notches above *that* in terms of sexy (less alcohol required, lol).
But yeah, her reply to me was a simple "ok lol", which could either mean,
"yeah, I'm up for it, let's do this" -or- *I'm too stupid as fuck to answer this,
so I'm just gonna write "lol" and hit send, cause I'm a stupid dumb girl*.
But yeah, her 'TDW status' reads "Need money holler if u can help", lol,
meaning, she was "open to it", but her previous statuses also showed her
beggin for "hard" (slang for cocaine), so yeah, when I put 2 and 2 together,
realizing, she's a major druggie, that's when I decided to move on past :)

IX. KIMBERLY1

So next is "kimberly1", who didn't shoot down my message, she accepted :)
and even took it to "stage 2", telling me to email her the money (first), lol,
and then she would "send teh panties for sure", yeah, like I totally believe ;)
Now I should note, I've been SCAMMED 5 TIMES THIS YEAR, in terms of
"over-the-mail panty purchases" gone bad (a combined loss of over $250!),
the most recent, a month ago ($60), so I might be done with "the mail" thing.
Btw, not the 1st time I talked with this G, I recall a few months back, my bday
was comin up, and I was messaging every G on TDW, in need of support
(having NO FRIENDS), so this girl sent a "guy friend" to come pick me up,
for a "night out (in b-town)", but I declined (last minute), for my safety :P


X. _CASHMONEY

So yeah, way way way at the beginning of this whole (I'll just say it...)
sad and utterly pathetic *bid* in trying to get (local) girls' underthingies, lol,
like, before I went about messaging the ENTIRE Tdotwire social network
(well, as many the bitches on it I could), yeah, in the very early moments,
I got a reply from this "_cashmoney" chick, letting me know (that yes) she
was ready act on my request (of course, be it the fact I'm paying her $100),
and she even chose a specific time, and yeah, all seemed 99% good to go,
until my conscience stepped in, asking me if this bitch is really worth forking
over $100 to, just to have *her panties*, sorry but I don't fuckin think so,
(doubt if I would even want them for free, lol), so yeah, I axed those plans.


XI. FYN3ZT

And finally, the best for last, this here being "FYN3ZT" (lol), and bytheway,
great username, maybe 5-10 years ago, she resembled something "fine",
but here we are, 2014, looks like she's had quite the 'rough recent years',
from her 'down syndrome'-raddled face, and her 'phoulorie stuffed' belly, lol,
as well as her saggy ass, so sad n' saggy, that not even sexy black leggings
(shown in her selfie pic) is able to help bring life to it, and sorry to make fun,
if that wasn't intended to be a selfie, and was (idunno) a weight-check pic?
Anyways, I'm done now with that, yeah and thanks for the "word up" :)
And as far as me being able "handle rejection" well, I can handle it fyn3!
I even made a t-shirt (ONLINE DATING REJECT) to let people know of it!


XII. DIRTY PANTY PURSUIT II (IN CLOSING)

So there you have it, uhhh, and yet another embarrassing chapter of my life,
and yeah, how it's plain fuckin *OBVIOUS* my head is in the wrong place,
be it the fact, I'm still (even after through all this bullshit), still on the aim
of trying to get a pair of ladies' *sexxxed up* panties (yeah, still aiming!)
and idunno, I guess it just won't stop until I finally do (you know) *GET IT*!
If that means, having to put myself through this (um) 'agonizing process' of
(uh) messaging the entire TDW social network 'allover again', until I finally
do hit a *BREAKTHROUGH*, hmmm, I guess I'll just have to go do that.
Oh and yeah, through all this mess, I'm still hoping to find a girl friend (LOL!)
in time for Christmas, as well as, New Year's (as if I actually have hope!).